Day 2 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Who is in Your Soul Circle?

Lesson 2: The first person you saw...

So I started typing out this really long blog post, accidentally hit a button, it all erases and then trying to control Z did nothing... AHHHH so frustrating. So here is attempt number 2.

Today was centred around  relationships. We were to sit in a quiet space, seek some light from the Divine, and contemplate who in our life brings dear meaning to us, and what lessons they teach us. Lesson Two proceeds with: "The first person you saw was your mother, your father. This was the first relationship. And yet the other relationships in your life have been equally destined. Those in your soul circle have come to join you in this lifetime." From this we were to write down the names of people who hold key relationships in our life and what we are learning from them. I decided to meditate on this rather than contemplate, so I opened myself up and allowed myself to receive. A lot of what I received was random images, which I believe to be other messages for other things, but I did see the people in whom I think are in my soul circle.

I first saw a seagull. I wanted to note this as I believe it was significant in the journey ahead. Seagulls can represent when things in your life need redefining or reassigning. They can hold opportunity, resourcefulness, freedom and being carefree. I thought it was nice to have a guide through this meditation and I was grateful to know that he was there. But the symbolism also helps with the people I received as my soul sisters.

I first saw my friend Joanna coupled with a hand with a wedding ring on it. She's actually married, and neither of us are in love with each other nor are inclined that way, but I took the wedding ring to be a symbol of a bond for life. I actually met Jo through my ex and without him, I probably wouldn't be friends with her otherwise. I believe our connection transcends physical being, and sometimes the greatest loves in your life aren't of that from a partner/lover, but through friendship. I have been stripped bare to my soul sometimes and there is Joanna there to support me. You don't always find people like this and it's nice to have. Even though we're both trying to find our true selves, Joanna teaches me to be whoever I want to be and that's okay. She accepts me for who I am and what I want to be. I've resonated to her words which have helped me want to be a better person towards others in life. I learn so much from her that she probably doesn't even know. 

The second friend I saw was a lady I met on my travels to Thailand last year through volunteering at an elephant village. Her name is Debra and I also feel like she is opening up truly to her spiritual awakening. I saw Debra on my meditation dancing to what seemed like a rockin' song and she was having fun in her own style. It was funny to see. I somehow got onto the topic of sacred geometry on my trip to Thailand and that's where the connection began. I don't know Debra for long, maybe a few months, and on my trip I really bared a lot of my soul to this stranger. It was refreshing to be that raw with someone in such a short amount of time. Debra is currently going through her own transformation, and what I learn from her, is that its never too late to find your true self. From someone who had quite a regimented work lifestyle and had to be in control of everything, she's really opened up to letting go and accepting whatever the universe gives her. I admire her ability to do this, even through tragedy she is moving forward.

And lastly, I was met with my friend Nasiha. Now, I've never met Nasiha but I talk to her more days than not. We met on an app called Anchor (original format and not what's there now) over a discussion on the Flash, of all things! I asked for her Facebook details and the rest is history! Again, another person I can go to the deepest of conversations both in dark times and light, who doesn't judge and just accepts. It's a nice feeling to have someone that no topic is off limits. I have opened up Nasiha to her spiritual side talking about Star children, mediumship, light work, spirit guides, astral projection etc etc and she has told me she doesn't truly have people to connect with on such a topic. I'm glad that I teach her and she teaches me about different aspects in life. The image I received of Nasiha was her reading a book on a bench. This pretty much sums up Nasiha to the T. She loves to indulge in new topics, and really learns about it, in order to have fruitful conversation. She's an old soul who has a good heart and engages with people of all walks of life. What I learn from Nasiha is never giving up on achieving the truest version of yourself, that self care means self nourishment and that we should never neglect any aspect of ourself.

So, there you have it. My soul sisters are from different countries and different walks of life and yet, I find my truer self connects with them the most. I find these ladies to be my key relationships for my spiritual growth. That's not to say that my other friends are not there in their own way, but in the terms of my spiritual journey, these sisters are in my soul circle.

Day 1 - A Year to Clear - Welcome!

Lesson 1: Welcome!

Today's lesson was quite introductory to say how everything will work with some FAQ. There will be 52 themes for each week of the year and obviously 7 days to cover each topic. Week 1 is focused on "Departing". One item I should have is a journal to log down how each lessons makes me feel and the impact it's having on my life. I thought just keeping it online might be the best way to go but maybe I'll keep a paper journal also for those moments that really make a considerable difference.

The guidelines:
Be Open - I want to transform along this journey and it's about letting go and facing the unknown. Pretty big step in my opinion seeing as we tend to fear the unknown so this will be so foreign to me.

Stop and feel - It's about really absorbing about what's being taught. Really connect with the emotion I have and having the time to understand why.

Receive and nourish - Every day is a new message and teaching so it's good to take the time to receive each message.

Take your time and keep it moving - This shouldn't be something of a chore. I need to take my time really reflecting within myself in order to grow.

Don't identify - This exercise is really about releasing stuck energy that we absorb from others, space, situations etc. So I'll be learning how to not make them mine.

Allow Silence - This talks about not being afraid to embrace everything that comes and being in silence gives an opportunity to feel and create openings.

Have fun! - I hope I don't get caught up in getting it right and let down barriers to just let things be and expand my perspective.

Although this says this is lesson 1, it wasn't a direct lesson in something specific but to open myself to those guidelines. So tomorrow is where the real fun begins

Day 1 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - What's Your Soul's Purpose?

Lesson 1 - Being born is a passage of forgetting...

Today opened up with a meditation to find my souls purpose. I lied down and connected with the Divine to try to remember what I already knew. My answer during my meditation was fragmented with a lot of different images, and through this, I wasn't supposed to always take the literal meaning of what I saw.

Details of Lesson One: Being born is a passage of forgetting; everything you once knew disappears, must be relearned again. This is the soul's purpose: this continual movement toward consciousness, toward remembering. In this lifetime, in every lifetime, this is your soul's destiny. The exercise was to see what my destiny is, which can be daunting if you doubt yourself and are unsure of even receiving any messages.

Let me take you through what I saw. It started with a moth flying upward which can symbolise to trust in the journey. A wolf appeared as a guide within my journey and I was shown the destruction of the environment: trees obliterated and the earth burning and to see such images was a scary experience. I believe I saw these images as it was a sign that I am meant to help heal the Earth in some way. I also saw humans advancing to a point where they will move on from the Earth, so that was kind of reassuring in the sense that everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

I called upon Odin, Ezekiel and Shiva to help guide me. You might ask, why did I call upon these deities and angel to guide me? Well on previous meditations that I've done, Ezekiel was the first angel to appear to me. He represents Transformation. Although he's not a heavily focused Angel to the likes of Arch angel Michael, Gabriel etc, Ezekiel I hold dear because he helped me to see that I was on the right path to start my spiritual journey. The current problem I have is trusting and letting go. He showed me that I was "home" and that I was finally here. I know that Ezekiel is heavily featured with the Merkaba which is the light vehicle of transcendence - I still have much to learn on this.

The Hindu deity Shiva came to me when I asked a witch friend some time ago, "how do I find out who my spiritual guide is?". He gave me a symbol to meditate on and Shiva came to me clear as day: blue skin, long dark hair, feminine features. I have no affiliation to Hinduism, and honestly, had't learned anything prior about it to know what the deities mean. But, here I was being connected to a deity that I was supposed to. I have now since learned Shiva is the third god in the Hindu triumvirate to Vishnu and Brahma. Brahma being creator of the universe, Vishnu being the preserver and Shiva is the destroyer of the universe, only to recreate it. Again, I am humbly reminded that I am being protected in my spiritual journey as Shiva, like Ezekiel, are here to help transform me: destroy the old/conditioned parts of me in order to recreate my true self.

Finally, I called upon Norse god Odin because he came to me in my Oracle card reading I did for myself and symbolised Guidance. Referred to as the "All Father" to both gods and humans, teaches that through education and listening to wise voices will help us in our own development and growth. He is a protector and helped guided me in the next part of my meditation after the wolf had shown me their part. He was clear as day in my meditation but dressed in some simple garments but I just knew it was him. I travelled with Odin on a horse to be shown light. That seems so simple but yet very informative to me. I want to be a light worker and it was a reconfirmation that this is part of me.

I saw words flash up "Forgive" which I can only reflect back on myself to forgive myself more and to be forgiving to others. Something I'm working on and feel I will succeed. I didn't see all the words being flashed to me as some were sentences and I'm sure when it's needed, they will reappear in future. The other words I do remember is "conform yourself" which I originally thought said "confirm yourself" but I looked closer to see the letters. I took "conform yourself" to mean that I need to accept that I'm on the right path. I saw divination tools like a crystal ball to reconfirm that my skills will develop and to keep at it. I've got a lot of work to do in order to help others.

I saw devastation of people: people crying, running with fear. It was very confronting. I took the meaning to be is that with the Earth crying with all our current environmental issues, the impacts are going to eventually spread to all humans and they will care one day - possibly when it's too late or they will wake up. This being an accompaniment to the previous images of the trees being destroyed. If we don't heal the Earth, we're going to face some really serious consequences. Also saw the sun breaking light over a planet, from the point of view from space. Seemed like a new dawn is coming.

I don't remember everything from this meditation because you just want to be within it and appreciate all that is being given to you. It's not as easily stopping, writing down what you saw and resuming where you left off. If only we had mental notebooks that captured everything we saw. What I was finally left with was a hello from Ezekiel and he was like a friend wishing me farewell from this journey. Shiva did not appear but that's not to say they weren't present.

So, going back to finding out what my soul's purpose is? Well, I believe I need to help others through my light work and if I keep developing, I will eventually do this.

2018 365 Day Challenge

I took on the 365 days of Gratitude challenge for 2017. I'm not sure why I thought about doing it but I thought why not try and find something every day that you are thankful for. It was a big challenge as some days when you are the lowest, you would really have to sit there and think, what am i grateful for? It's a practise in positivity and I am glad to have done it. Now for 2018!

I found the Daily Om on some Facebook ads and when I clicked on that ad was opened up to many more courses that would help with my spirituality. I decided to buy the "A Year to Clear What is Holding You Back!" and "A Year of Spiritual Awakening in Your Inbox". Both are daily challenges with themes throughout them. I said I wouldn't do another 365 day challenge but here I am testing myself. I think it'll integrate naturally into my life so I'm not worried about it. It also forces me to blog daily and I am happy to be somewhat forced to write every day. I have neglected my writing and it's time I picked up and committed to it if I want to be successful in it.

Bring on the new year!