Day 205 - A Year to Clear - Monkey Mind Mom

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Lesson 205: Monkey Mind Mom

Stephanie Bennett Vogt speaks in today lesson of a situation where her daughter was in Europe and she missed some trains. Things essentially were not going to plan and her daughter was crying saying that she wished her parents were there, but that she knew it would be okay by sticking it out. The lesson is about things not going to plan and at times you might feel like the world is against you. You might curl up in a ball and cry. You might feel like you’re making tracks but going three steps back. There are times when we are challenged in this way. Today is to think of a time when you felt really rattled when plans just went into disarray. How did you handle them?

I guess today’s lesson may not have initially resonated it for me because it was named “monkey mind mom” because I’m not a mum (I’m Australian and we spell it mum). I get what the lesson is about and it’s about those times we feel like everything is going wrong and our minds take over. I’m just not sure why it had to be labelled with “mom”. Anyway, that’s not entirely important so I’ll move onto my experience.

I think 2016 and 2017 were some real shit years for me. From not having enough money to support myself, being sexually harassed at a work party, having an abortion, not having any career direction.. I felt like every time something good was happening, something worse would come along. Like it seemed like it was systematic. I felt like I couldn’t get ahead in my life. There were times when I felt like “how much more can I go through?”. I just wanted this bad run to end. Eventually it did when I had a spiritual awakening and starting to see all the good things in life, even if it were small positives. I feel like having the awareness to look at life in a different way really changed my life. I learned to accept that yes, bad things do happen though it doesn’t mean I can’t learn from it or see a positive in it. I just needed to sink to my darkest parts of myself in order to shine the light to get back out again. When my mind gets muddled with everyday life franticness, I try to just breathe through it and think of a better way. There is no way to completely stop bad thoughts from coming into your mind, but it’s just how we react that can make a difference. I try not to overwhelm myself and if I do, I take a moment for myself.