Day 104 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - This Idea of Unworthiness

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Lesson 104: This Idea of Unworthiness...

“This idea of unworthiness, of sin, of being unsalvageable—it’s not true! You took on this idea, when you first were hurt, wounded, experienced pain. But it’s a misbelief. You don’t need it. This idea isn’t correct!”

— Sara Wiseman

Today we are to write down all the “rotten” things about ourselves. We are to read it and recognise that we are just like anyone else – there is nothing more wrong or right about you to the next person. We are all imperfectly perfect. It’s time to acknowledge that we are very much the same in this way. We all have good and bad aspects and go through the same emotions and feelings. Our experiences in situations are not the same but we definitely can say we know of anger, pain, hurt, love, happiness, joy….

My list consists of:

·         I am messy

·         I don’t like my body sometimes

·         I don’t eat well enough

·         I can be lazy

·         I need more focus and motivation

·         I should be doing more for myself

That’s my immediate thoughts of things I recognise I do consistently. I guess the point is, I share these same thoughts with many people… and that’s okay! These are attributes I am trying to work on and I actively seek out to eradicate the bad thoughts and take action of those that I lack. I don’t necessarily see myself as “rotten”. I just think it’s a step by step process, always getting closer to the best version of me.

Day 104 - A Year to Clear - What Would You Do?

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Lesson 104: What Would You Do?

We are posed with a simple question today “What would you do if you felt 100 percent worthy?”. Contemplate and write about your experience.

For me, it’s still something I work on – that I am worthy of whatever I want as long as I work for it. I do not think that I am in anyway entitled to anything nor do I like to use the term “I deserve it”. Personally, I struggle with those thoughts that put myself down which I believe many people do. Thoughts such as “why would anyone be interested in me, the way I look right now” “why isn’t anything going my way” “why doesn’t anything good happen to me” – they are very much limiting thoughts. I am self-aware of those thoughts and I actively work in changing my mindset. I am around people that teach me a better way. to get up in the morning and look yourself in the mirror and say positive things such as “I am beautiful” “I look good today” “My outfit looks great” and you keep repeating positive affirmations until you actually start to believe it. It’s when you start to believe it that others will too.

I think when you work on yourself, then the thought of worth would naturally come into play. It’s not that you aren’t worthy now; it’s that your mindset has to catch up. I know I am worthy of so much, though it’s about having the thought processes that accompany it and I know I will get there.