Day 68 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The person who...

Photo by Thought Catalog on Unsplash

Lesson 68: The person who...

Didn’t post this on Friday as I was celebrating my friend’s mum’s 70th birthday. Just got home bloated and wanted to crash. Just needed that for me.

So Friday’s lesson was all about taking some time to think about "The Person Who" has good distractions versus "The Person Who" bad distractions. Does a person who goes out and use playing a sport as a distraction (as an example), just as easily distracted as a person who uses drugs and alcohol? If we are just finding good and bad ways to distract, the idea is that we are not open to the light.

Friday was all about asking what if we didn’t do these “good” things for the day? What is your reaction? Do you find that your instant thought is to reject this idea or do you feel a relief?

So using my happy distraction of music – I think I would die without it. Now that’s extreme but I just don’t think I could live without it. That’s kind of my safe space which I suppose I’ve created. I guess the point of the lesson is that you don’t necessarily need it as it can close you off from yourself, the world, the situation. I know I get lost in music to stop thinking about something that’s bothered me in some way. If I just take a moment, go through my feelings and my emotions towards any situation, I can actually face it and overcome it – no matter how minor or major it is.

This lesson really got me thinking about good and bad distractions on such a wider level, it’s amazing how “awake” I’m becoming. We don't have to continue to distract ourselves if we just accept it with some good light, deal with it and then release.

Day 68 - A Year to Clear - Get Out of Your Way

Photo by Nick Karvounis on Unsplash

Lesson 68: Get Out of Your Way

I would have posted this on Friday but I had no time. Celebrated my friend’s mums 70th birthday which I thought was more important. I did think about the lesson though. Friday’s lesson was all about taking on the concept that we get in our own way when it comes to clearing. It’s realising that anything we can’t release is actually us holding onto that memory, habit, thought etc, which is therefore how we get stuck, and how we get in our own way. It was actually an “oh yeah!” moment for me. Like yeah, I really hold onto shit I probably shouldn’t because it just doesn’t really serve me anymore.

Friday’s lesson is all about asking ourselves what is getting in the way and what that answer is. Really breathing into the process.

When I thought about what I do to get in my own way, it’s really just negative thoughts. Simple thoughts like “I can’t do this” or “I don’t like my life”, just really get in the way. And I’ve said this before that anyone can be the limiting factor in their life, but also have the power to change their lives. I am working on dispelling those thoughts because I honestly don’t know where they come from sometimes. I don’t think it’s as bad as I’ve always remembered, and I am making tracks, so that is a positive.

Apart from this, the other thing that holds me back is remembering the feelings and emotions I had through old memories. I seem to go back there if that makes sense. I start to feel bad about things in the past in which I need to leave behind in the past. Mostly I think about how shit I felt through my past lovers and abortion. These memories really don’t serve me a purpose because it’s time to move forward. They happened and I can’t change anything. Definitely working progress that I am aware of.