Day 182 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Body Holds Everything...

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Lesson 182: The Body Holds Everything...

The body literally holds onto everything that happens in our lives. Whether we do it good or bad, it holds onto it all – trauma being one of them. Today is about thinking about trauma and where we think it is held in our bodies. Think about those old wounds that cripple you, ask the Divine where you hold the trauma and if you would like them removed. Start to notice the shift.

My past trauma was very much held in my mind and heart. I think it was very gut wrenching too. Where emotions build up and all I could do is cry because it hurts so much. I went to go to hypnotherapy as a quick measure to release all past trauma. I did try facing them one by one, but I found because I had held onto a lot of trauma for over 10 years, it was taking some time. Not saying that I wouldn’t have eventually faced them all and released, but I just wanted it over and done with and chose hypnotherapy as the route. What I learned is that some was buried deep in my subconscious, whereas others were evidently at the forefront of my mind and heart.

The best part was not having the same attached emotions to past trauma when I had hypnotherapy. It was a release that allowed me to be free of the hold these memories had. I felt lighter. Like the literal weight had been lifted off my shoulders and I could finally live. I recommend it to anyone who is open to going into the depths of their mind and having the attached pain released. It’s so freeing not being your worst enemy with all those thoughts cycling through your head.

If hypnotherapy isn’t for you, the method I was using was going through meditation and facing the deep, dark emotions I felt towards my memories. There was a lot of crying and facing the truth, but also admitting the truth to myself – that the reasons people did bad things to me was because of them, and not me. That however I was being shown, was some higher power directing me to the real reasons as to why someone would harm me – a lot of which wasn’t about me at all. I recognised that all people have some bad traits that you don’t necessarily see because you’re blinded by them at the time or manipulated. You have to be open to the fact that those people aren’t good for you or don’t have your best interests at heart, when you are trying to face that trauma. In fact, some people do not care for you at all or in the same way you care for them, and then somehow this makes you a target for them. I think a lot of trauma caused by others is because they never had your best interests at heart – that’s the truth I found. I believe it might be the same for a lot of people. I think when you’re ready to let go, then you will. I think it’s important to let go because the trauma impacts your life in ways that you don’t even realise sometimes – like being guarded, not trusting others, not being open… It’s so automatic that even you might not see it.

So, think about your trauma and work on ways to release. You will notice changes in you that are for the better.

Day 182 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 26 - Moving Forward

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Lesson 182: Check In WEEK 26 - Moving Forward

This week has very much been about how the clearing journey has been so far. I think I am definitely a changed person as it’s opened my eyes to the world I create around myself and what physical and mental clutter we keep around and why. I feel like it’s a lifelong journey – that the lessons taught are building me up to be able to take on any challenges. The most crucial step is bringing self-awareness into everything. Change doesn’t happen overnight and that it can be a gradual progress as long as you’re making an effort to change the things in your life that do not serve you. I think as I open myself more to what I need to pay attention to, the more I can let go of things that I hold onto that don’t serve me well. I like the transformation of the person I’m becoming.

Day 181 - A Year to Clear - What IS Working?

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Lesson 181: What IS Working?

Today we are to make a list of what is working in our lives. Then, from there we are to choose one and focus our attention on it even if uncomfortable feelings start to arise from it.

My list of what’s working in my life:

·         Spirituality

·         Meditation

·         Dance

·         Card reading

·         Witchcraft

·         Divination

·         Mediumship

·         Living through experience

I kind of focus on all of these and to just focus on one is a no can do in my eyes. I go to dance class on Mondays and that was my main focus as I had a performance to prepare for. In July there won’t be as much of a focus as I don’t have a performance, though it’s still important.

I live through experience because I think I really got so caught up in my past relationship in my twenties, that I didn’t really live my life. That’s a massive truth bomb if I ever let it drop. I didn’t travel. I didn’t do anything I wanted to do. I didn’t even dream. So, I decided last year that I wouldn’t take any moment for granted. That in every moment, I could experience something. This is something I hold with great value.

My spirituality is linked to everything else – meditation, witchcraft, all the types of psychic readings I do. I feel like this is just part of my life and although I don’t necessarily have one focus, they all interweave with one another. From this, I want to start my own business so I guess that would be my main focus in the upcoming months. I take my spirituality seriously and think I have skills that I opened myself up to, which I don’t want to turn back on. I am still expanding and developing and this is a natural part of my life.

So, I guess I will set up my business as my main focus but it really integrates everything that I am doing in my life. What is on your list and what do you want to focus on?

Day 181 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Physical Body Can...

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Lesson 181: The Physical Body Can...

“The physical body can change in an instant, but mostly, it changes slowly; you eat a meal, and feel one way. You sleep, and feel another. The emotional body can change in milliseconds, riding up one wave of emotion and down the other. The waves are not true: they are just the movement of energy, up or down.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today we are to thinking about what we do when we have a rise or decline in emotion. What do we do to make ourselves balanced again when that emotion doesn’t serve you anymore?

I personally take deep breaths in and then breathing out. I actually do a lot of visualisation that the air I breathe in is some energising white light and what I breathe out is all the anxiety, pain, frustration etc that goes back out into the Universe. That’s what I try first.

Other times I just watch TV or listen to music to just take my mind away from things because then I don’t have to use brain power thinking about anything. Sometimes it’s just nice to have these outlets to get lost in for a moment.

Another thing I do to rebalance is meditation or just simply asking the Universe to take what doesn’t serve me away. I think simply by asking it to not be in my mind anymore and asking my guides to help me, makes a difference. Then I usually sleep on it and I don’t have so much emotions the next day.

These methods are all my methods of trying to rebalance – what are yours?

Day 180 - A Year to Clear - Internal Markers

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Lesson 180: Internal Markers

With the clearing course, there are obvious triumphs in the physical sense of clearing but what are the “internal markers”? Is there a way to remain present and spacious when faced with situations you are normally uncomfortable in? Is there a way to get through life without having a button pressed? How does one discover those triggers that makes us cycle through the storm that comes internally?

I know for me that I see triumph over the storm when I truly face my emotions. I like to know why I might get angry at something or frustrated. Lately, I have been dealing with anxiety at work and I couldn’t figure out why. I went to see a councillor who advised that I set my expectations too high and that when they are not met, I get frustrated and anxious that situations aren’t going my way. His advice to me was to lower my expectations in my work situation. He didn’t say not to lose my high standards or lower my own beliefs, it was more so that if I place too much expectation on something then I will get disappointed. I understood what he was saying and took that on board. I think that sometimes I’m not always going to figure out my triggers on my own but at least I’m open to discovering them.

I think what I try to do with most situations with friends or family that I don’t really know if I want be around, is to give it benefit of the doubt. I am much a person of giving something a go and if it doesn’t work out, then I just don’t do it again. I think living through experience is one of the better ways I have ever lived. Just give it a try and see how it works out.

I think the trigger I do recognise that causes anger in me is the inconsideration of others and how that can impact myself and those around me. Either people don’t have compassion, they live with ignorance or they just don’t care about how their environment effects the world around them. It’s a certain selfishness that I have difficulty understanding. It can be a simple act of not letting someone out of an elevator before entering themselves or walking in front of a car that is going through a green light. It’s like people purposely act shit sometimes. I have to remind myself that not everyone thinks like me.

Overall, I think this course has taught me to look at my emotions and feelings. There is no way to go through life without getting a rise in emotions, but I feel like I’m more self-aware than ever to be able to deal with them.