Day 185 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Understand Who You Are as...

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Lesson 185: Understand Who You Are as...

“Understand who you are as a being. You are most certainly not the façade, the image, the brand you present to the world. This aspect could be gone in a second; it means nothing.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today is about feeling your deeper self. Do away with the mask you wear to others of the outside world and find that true love inside of you. Who is that person? And, what do you love about them?

My deeper being is the person I am trying to be all the time. I think I put on the mask that everyone can deal with and cope with. I really put on my front for others and I’m not even sure it serves me well. I think at work, there is a certain amount of professionalism that is needed and I obviously can’t be my true self, but I sometimes think “why should that matter?”.

So, the person I love inside is the spiritual me. The person who can speak freely of my witchcraft and psychic development. If I start talking about my guides and that I can see passed over loved ones, I am not “normal”. In fact, people’s eyes glaze over and they think I’m a crazy person. That sucks that society has built up this negative aspect to something that I truly resonate with. Sure, there are always people in belief systems that do the wrong thing against others – I find that just how it is in any belief system, but why are people so judgemental towards something they don’t even understand? People talk about having an open mind but they sometimes, just really don’t.

The reason I don’t fully open myself is because people aren’t genuinely interested. I feel free when I’m talking to people like myself and believe in the things I do. It was a rare find and I treasure all these spiritual people I meet more than they realise. It’d be nice if I could talk freely all the time of what I do. But people sometimes don’t want to understand either.

I am slowly just revealing more of me as I go on this path. I am wanting to set up my own business in readings and that will show everyone who I am as a person. I don’t need people to believe in the path I choose. All I know is that I believe in what I do and that’s all that matters. I will feel free and comfortable in “normal” society with the odd things that I do in time.

Day 184 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There are Two Places to Release Emotions...

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Lesson 184: There are Two Places to Release Emotions...

Today we are to apply the two ways we can release our emotions. The first is to meditate and be aware of your self-energy whilst the other is to immerse yourself in a noisy group setting and merge with that energy. See how you feel with both.

I do meditate by myself even if it’s a quick closing of my eyes and taking some deep breaths. It’s calming to just clear my head and take in those deep breaths to clear out my body also. I find that I balance myself when I do this. That whatever may have caused me some anger, anxiety or worry etc, will go away eventually. I just breathe through it. Other times, I may just go to YouTube and put on a meditation and just find myself relaxing. I am always out to thank Spirit and the Divine for the day that I’ve had. When I do this, I instantly feel better for everything in my life also.

In terms of being in a crowd like situation, I didn’t really have that opportunity today. I was at work, but I didn’t really want to immerse myself in that energy, only because it’s not the best environment. How I do merge myself with good energy of a crowd is at a concert or gig that I’m at. I like when we are all together, strangers in a room sharing a love for the same music artist. I think that’s something special and I love feeding and giving out energy. I always feel so amped up after being in a crowd and just feeling the music. It’s totally refreshing. Apart from this, I can’t think of a noisy group scenario where I gain good energy. I very much like being by myself hey. I like the solitude and wisdom that being with myself can bring.

How do you find your ways to release when you’re by yourself or in a crowd?

Day 184 - A Year to Clear - Yang and Yin

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Lesson 184: Yang and Yin

“Being bold and being vulnerable are two sides of the same coin. Together they make a potent combination.”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

Today we are to consider the statement.

It’s quite powerful and at the same time makes perfect sense. I think about the times when we need to push our comfort zones – doing something we may not necessarily like but have to try in order to find out. When I think about a time I pushed my comfort zone was when I first moved to Melbourne. I did not know anyone, apart from work mates who I had spoken to on the phone, and I didn’t have any friends or family here. I decided to go to meetup groups to establish my own friendships. I was really pushing myself to do it, not knowing if I’d find anyone I’d get along with. I had to become brave in those moments and told myself to just go with the flow and see what happened. It did leave me vulnerable, in the sense that I wasn’t sure if I could chat to anyone or seem interesting enough for people to want to talk to me. I could have been a fish out of water. In the end, it turned out well and I surprised myself at how well I succeeded in those meetup groups.

I guess if I didn’t open myself to those possibilities, I wouldn’t have known. I allowed myself to be both bold and vulnerable in order to move forward and establish my own network of friends. I think those two aspects applies in life – like trusting new friends with your life, asking someone out for the first time, asking your boss for raise, going on a holiday by yourself, trying a dance class where you don’t know anyone… I could on and on. It’s a powerful combo that pushes boundaries in a good way. You could take it one step deeper and realise that it helps clear your path of doubt also. By using that combo, it allows you to live.

Do you remember a time when you were both vulnerable and bold?

Day 183 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - You Must First Release...

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Lesson 183: You Must First Release...

When we are upset, we tend to find that one thing that will make us feel bliss again. we kind of skip the steps to truly release that hurt and pain. What we do need to do is go through the passages of the heart of pain and compassion to open ourselves to that and then once processed, move into bliss from here. This is when we know we have truly released and cleared. Today we are to practise just that when we are upset.

The one thing that upset me today was another restructure being announced at work when I had just come out of another that didn’t work so well. Not knowing whether I have a job secured or not is nerve wracking. I cannot stand the not knowing. I think what I recognise is the anxiety build I get from this type of news – I just don’t like being in limbo with no real decisions being told to me. It’s the waiting on the actual placement of myself and my team that will have me shook. So as part of this lesson, I fully accept the anxiety I get. The way I can apply compassion is knowing that this is out of my control and my manager’s control. We all have to show patience during this time and just let the upper management do their thing. I have to trust that they are doing their best towards my situation. I cannot worry about things that are not in my control. The way I will reach my bliss state is to just let it be and that it will work out for the best. Everything happens for a reason and it will work out the way it’s supposed to.

What is something that happened today that upset you that you need to deal with the pain and then apply compassion, so that you can reach bliss?

Day 183 - A Year to Clear - There is a Fountain Inside You

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Lesson 183: There is a Fountain Inside You

“There is a fountain inside you. Don’t walk around with an empty bucket.”

— Rumi

New week equals a new theme and it is “En-Couraging”.

I don’t really know what to expect this week, but based on the quote that’s given, I think this about realising your full potential and always filling yourself up with knowledge. Although, I also believe it’s about sharing your knowledge once you’ve gained the experience yourself. It’s about self-empowerment but empowering others also. I don’t want to guess too much and see what this week brings.