Day 302 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Like a Wave...

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Lesson 302: Like a Wave...

“Like a wave, life swells forward then recedes. It’s always in constant cycle of moving forward, receding backward. We like to think we’re making progress in the “forward” phase. And yet, it’s in the negative space the gathering phase—this is where we collect our strength.”

— Sara Wiseman

Life is cycles. Cycles through both good and bad, new experiences and lessons. Today we are to think about if you have a need to always have something happening in your life. Do you feel like there is a need to be continually moving forward? What about if you did nothing? How do you feel about that? Just resting and doing nothing…

I like today’s little paragraph about being in a negative space allows us to collect our strength. I really needed that reminder. It allows me to be okay with my negativity for the moment so I can build myself up and let it go. The main thing is to not allow it to consume me and I know I have it within myself to let it go. I know it’s just a cycle I need to go through.

I don’t feel like life has to have something going on at the time. I would actually welcome some peace in my life. I feel like I’ve been bombarded with challenges towards the end of the year and all I can ask is whyyyyyy? I would love to rest and do nothing. I find that I can really recharge when I do this. Switch off from everyone and I do mean everyone, and just do some things for myself for my own self-care. I think we stretch ourselves too much and forget about ourselves. I would like if my life wasn’t so happening sometimes. My energy gets depleted so much sometimes. I say bring on the rest! I need some more and can’t wait for the Christmas holidays to just relax on my own.

How do you feel about doing nothing? Or do you find yourself restless in those moments?

Day 302 - A Year to Clear - How Spacious Can You Be?

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Lesson 302: How Spacious Can You Be?

“There are the obvious external clues of clearing success, of course: an emptier bookcase, more white space in your email inbox, a new love interest, a job offer. But what about the internal markers? How spacious, and detached and present can you truly be when the next family reunion rolls around? Or a child becomes seriously ill. Are you able to glide about your life without as much as a button getting pressed?”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

New week equals a new theme and this week is “Marking Progress”. Very different from making progress. How does one mark progress? I guess the answer lies within the paragraph above. If we do physical clearing, our mark is made by having more space in our physical environment. But what about all the mental clutter we’ve got under control? Do we notice the progress then? I guess because I’ve been more down lately based on personal circumstance, I might not see the progress as I’m not in the best head space right now. But if I think back on the person I used to be, I would have had headaches by now with all the stress I would have had on my mind. I would feel the pangs of worry overwhelm my body, whereas now, I am better able to take on the load. Yes, I have a redundancy of my job to deal with, but I know it’s going to be okay. I remember that I can always return to breath if I need to. I don’t have a monkey mind like I used to. That to me is marking my progress. We shall see how the lesson unfold…

Day 301 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Being Able to Move Into...

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Lesson 301: Being Able to Move Into...

…..the heart of connection, doesn’t mean you won’t feel pain again. What it allows us is to be able to comprehend our pain, work through it and be able to move forward again. Today we are to think about if we only expect our lives to be “good”, do we really learn? Do you feel it’s in those moments that are not “ideal” in which we really learn?

I guess I really needed to see this lesson. At the moment, I feel like I am really being challenged. Like all these bad things have come at once and now I have to deal with it. I was telling a friend how I am a bit tired of having to be strong all the time and facing major challenges every year. I know that life is not perfect, nor is it always good. This lesson serves a reminder. I think I really needed this today because I felt like I was really done with the day. My brain melted from having to re-do my CV, it was hot, it was also windy and my skirt kept blowing up in front of other people and I just felt really unmotivated to do much of anything. Being made redundant and trying to work in the existing role is quite difficult. Putting on a brace face to fake it to maintain appearances is so exhausting also. I guess this is my current pain.

I know I won’t get stuck in this pain forever. I know I need to move through it. My mindset isn’t the best but I am getting up every day and telling myself I can do it, even though I don’t feel like it. I am grateful that I have the strength to keep moving on. It’s just another challenge I need to overcome. Even though the anxiety is coming, I feel like I am going to get through it. The sooner I can secure a new job, the sooner I will feel like there isn’t such a cloud over me. I just need it to go away so I can get back to being myself.. and I will!

I just need to remind myself, it’s a small blip in the cycle. I will overcome it because I can overcome anything!

Day 301 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 43 - Supporting Release

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Lesson 301: Check In WEEK 43 - Supporting Release

 This week we were learning other ways of release. Because that’s what we’ve been learning all year, there was added ways to support release. I didn’t particularly like the “yoga” poses as they didn’t do much for me. I would probably get more use doing meditation. As for causing disappointment, I think it was a good way to detach from outcomes and it was a lesson of supporting our own truth. I personally haven’t been doing that well with the challenges in my life, so I haven’t been fully focused on what has been taught. I am in a cycle of trying to empower myself so I can tackle what I’m facing. I’ll see what the next week brings..

Day 300 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Your Ability to Transmute...

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Lesson 300: Your Ability to Transmute...

We have learned over the year the three passages of the heart of pain, compassion and connection. It’s about turning your pain into compassion and then connection. We can transmute our emotions in this way. We can always go from a low to higher vibration by allowing ourselves to go through the passages of the heart. Today we are to move quickly through pain, compassion and connection in a current situation. What do you notice when you do this?

What I decided to work on was my pain in motivation. Things are in a bit of disarray in my life and I am also unmotivated to try harder. I find it painful because I don’t want to get stuck in the cycle of not doing anything. It was hard to get up and just wake up enough to write these blog posts I have. I am to accept that it can drag me down if I let it. When I apply compassion to myself, it’s understandable that I would have whatever emotions I have come up because I was made redundant at work. I understand that whatever emotions rise, I have to let it, as long as it doesn’t weigh me down. I am compassionate on myself for having all this negative stuff come up. With connection, I realise that my coworkers are in the same boat. It’s not something I have to go through alone and there will be negativity for some time until I can get going and put my applications in when the company I work for advertises new roles. It’s about getting into a routine to focus on this.

What I feel by moving through these passages of the heart is that everything will be okay. whatever happens will happen and even though this is a fork in the road and I have to divert off the course I had, I just got to put out there my intentions in order to manifest a job into my life. It has placed me in a position to think smarter when it comes to money and I need to really pull everything tighter. I need to focus on my business also. I can’t up and leave a full time job just yet, but it has also served as a reminder that I need to focus on it in order to build a customer base. And, I need to write my books. There is a lot of focus I need right now. So I will go and read the books I need to in order to get my act together.

What is something you worked through today?