Day 11 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Your body is not a random container
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Lesson 11: Your body is not a random container...
Today’s lesson has me connecting with my body. Specifically that my soul chose this particular vessel in which I would learn all my lessons. It’s not by random that I chose this body for this earth life. I can safely say, that I have never connected with my body this way.
The exercise is to go through listing the aspects of my body that I enjoy and what I dislike. Does anything bring me joy or disdain? What does my body tell me? I am to try to understand that nothing is random and everything experienced is part of my soul growth.
I think what I’m disappointed in is myself for letting myself go a bit, putting on over 20kg and not looking after myself. I know I want my body in better shape but I’m finding it difficult to just commit to the exercise. So far this year, I’ve signed up to belly dance class just to get some form of routine happening, hoping that it will have a flow on effect. I know my body cries to me that what I feed it is not right. I need to improve my health so I love my body more. In saying that, I do like being a curvier woman than super skinny. Not that there is anything wrong with skinny people, I just particularly like having curves.
I have always thought my body as a canvas for artwork. It’s why I’ve always wanted tattoos since I was 15 because the body is blank to fill with stories. Not sure why I’ve thought tattoos are cool, I’ve just always enjoyed them. I like admiring my tattoos as well as others because I just find it interesting to look at.
The only thing I’ve struggled with in the past is my physical appearance as it’s been subjected to racism. Living in fear of your life just because you look a certain way is not a way to live. It doesn’t happen in this modern day and age but that fear is still at the back of my mind. I believe that was part of my experience in order to grow a stronger part of my soul and I don’t stand for shit given to me and will always stand up for myself now. Definitely a lesson learned which I may not have understood at the time.
Apart from this, I don’t believe I feel ashamed or sad in my body. I just need a bit of work.