Day 186 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Do You Know Your True Self...

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Lesson 186: Do You Know Your True Self...

Along the way we forget our true selves. As a child we have dreams and goals that don’t seem unattainable because we hold that innocence that allows us to have such high hopes. As we grow older and integrate ourselves into the world, not only are we faced with certain realities but self-doubt, fears as well as doubt from others projecting their fears onto you, start to flourish in our lives. I believe these things aren’t intentional but just how society is built. As we learn in our surroundings and from those around us, pursuing our best interests aren’t always attainable when you have to work, to have a roof over your head and to eat, and somehow you lack the time to follow your dreams. Sometimes I believe working hard to save money is also something you have to do to really pursue your dreams on the side. I think we somehow get lost in amongst all this pressure in getting a job that we lose ourselves and our true self along the way.

I wanted to explore witchcraft and any form of spiritual connection to the other side when I was in high school. I bought oracle cards and used them, and also bought a tarot deck and didn’t know how to use those. Then I met my then boyfriend who said because we were Catholic we didn’t believe in all that (in reference to witchcraft), I foolishly listened and didn’t pursue it any further. I think that was the first step in losing my true self.

Here I am 16ish years later, finally being woken up to what I truly want to do in my life and I have never felt better! I had to think about what I wanted to pursue in my life through interests and hobbies. As I started to think about what I wanted as a child and teenager but didn’t have the confidence to follow through, I decided to do them now at 33. I don’t think it’s too late to follow your dreams. I now practise a way of life I want to lead and doors of opportunity have opened wide. I am now going to start working as a tarot reader for a witch shop here in Melbourne and look to starting my own spiritual practise. I think my true self is coming to the surface and it took some time to come about, but I’m glad that it has. I don’t want to neglect what I truly want to do in life and I’m not turning back.