Day 186 - A Year to Clear - Tell the Truth

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Lesson 186: Tell the Truth

Today is about telling the truth in your clearing practises. The element of truth comes about when applying awareness to your courage in your clearing. I was having a bit of trouble trying to understand today’s lesson. The message is that if you go into a task without a thought and hoping for the best result, it’s not really doing a good job. In addition to this, when you “tell the truth about your experience”, it’s about conscious effort to allow you to feel. Clearing allows you to feel. I guess that’s the point? Even though clearing brings about emotions you might not necessarily want to feel, for example being uncomfortable, at the end of the day, once it’s cleared you’ll feel good about your space and how you feel in it. It’s not an easy task and was never going to be and it’s about the courage you can possess to overcome those things that hold you back.

So, telling the truth in this experience is the whole rollercoaster of emotions. I know it hasn’t been easy and some days I don’t clear at all. I just do it when I can. The physical clearing is slow for me because when I do clear, I think I’ve done what I’ve needed to so far but in reality, I seem to find more things that can really go. Confronting those wasteful thoughts was challenging and I have explained this in previous posts the truth in that comes about from it. I think clearing is a journey of what weighs you down that you need to get rid of to reveal your best self. I think I tell the truth in all my posts of my experience. I think I do this lesson quite well.

Day 186 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Do You Know Your True Self...

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Lesson 186: Do You Know Your True Self...

Along the way we forget our true selves. As a child we have dreams and goals that don’t seem unattainable because we hold that innocence that allows us to have such high hopes. As we grow older and integrate ourselves into the world, not only are we faced with certain realities but self-doubt, fears as well as doubt from others projecting their fears onto you, start to flourish in our lives. I believe these things aren’t intentional but just how society is built. As we learn in our surroundings and from those around us, pursuing our best interests aren’t always attainable when you have to work, to have a roof over your head and to eat, and somehow you lack the time to follow your dreams. Sometimes I believe working hard to save money is also something you have to do to really pursue your dreams on the side. I think we somehow get lost in amongst all this pressure in getting a job that we lose ourselves and our true self along the way.

I wanted to explore witchcraft and any form of spiritual connection to the other side when I was in high school. I bought oracle cards and used them, and also bought a tarot deck and didn’t know how to use those. Then I met my then boyfriend who said because we were Catholic we didn’t believe in all that (in reference to witchcraft), I foolishly listened and didn’t pursue it any further. I think that was the first step in losing my true self.

Here I am 16ish years later, finally being woken up to what I truly want to do in my life and I have never felt better! I had to think about what I wanted to pursue in my life through interests and hobbies. As I started to think about what I wanted as a child and teenager but didn’t have the confidence to follow through, I decided to do them now at 33. I don’t think it’s too late to follow your dreams. I now practise a way of life I want to lead and doors of opportunity have opened wide. I am now going to start working as a tarot reader for a witch shop here in Melbourne and look to starting my own spiritual practise. I think my true self is coming to the surface and it took some time to come about, but I’m glad that it has. I don’t want to neglect what I truly want to do in life and I’m not turning back.