Day 231 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - After You Have Been Through...

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Lesson 231: After You Have Been Through...

We are moving through four passages of the heart. So far we have been through pain, compassion and currently going through connection. As we pass through the passages, you will find that even though you might slip into pain, you might not actually stay there for long. You might see that you move into compassion and connection easily from pain. Today we are to slip back into pain and see how long you remain there before you move to compassion and then connection.

I actually had a depressive moment on the weekend. I felt a bit lonely and that about how I’m never going to find someone I truly connect with for a long term partner. You know that same old gem that can pop up from time to time. I was thinking about all the things I didn’t have rather than looking at all the abundance I had in my life. I think what triggered all of this, is that I went on some dating apps online and realise that there aren’t many men wanting a serious relationship. They see me as someone just to sleep with and move onto the next. I think that in itself is quite sad, but I’m not judging people’s lifestyles, it’s more that it’s sad trying to find someone that wants genuine connection. Anyway, I was talking to a friend who tried to cheer me up and I eventually got out of my funk. I went to have dinner with friends and came back home to rest. I think it’s that need of wanting more than what’s in my life, which is fed by ego and not really looking at what’s good in it.

My slump lasted just an afternoon and it was something I pulled myself out of. Just reminding myself that I am blessed and it will happen in time was what I needed to do. I reassured myself that I was making an effort and that’s a positive thing. I think I just forgave myself for having downward thoughts of myself and told myself that I can do anything and things will happen. Just being around friends was a good way to be reminded of good things in life. I am going to be fine.

I think it’s important to note that we will fall down at times, but it doesn’t mean we’re going to stay there. It’s more like a passing and going… just let it flow, though also let it pass. If it’s going to come, just let it. It’s how you let the wave pass which makes all the difference.