Day 203 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 29 - Accepting and Allowing

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Lesson 203: Check In WEEK 29 - Accepting and Allowing

The week was very much about accepting your self and being present in the moment. It was a lesson of jut letting things be just as they are – not that you had to necessarily change anything but just fully acknowledging your self. How did it make you feel? What got in your way?

I felt like the blocker was just my monkey mind and all the silly thoughts that can flow through. I think the thing with self-acceptance is that it’s done in parts. You can learn to love and accept all parts of you, but it takes time. I don’t think it happens overnight. I think it’s a step by step process of you working through the characteristics, habits, patterns, qualities of you that you don’t necessarily like, you may fail to recognise or think are good, though others love you for it.

I think the meditation of really being in the now helped to calm everything down and make you realise that there’s no need to look in the past or future, but just be in the now. It’s actually hard to achieve this all the time. But the more we can stay in the present, it allows you to let go but also clear space for being more open.

Day 198 - A Year to Clear - Self Accepting

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Lesson 198: Self Accepting

Today we are to practise the following statement in present time “I allow myself to be myself.”
Notice your feelings as you say this statement over the course of the day but also any resistance to this but allow them to be.

When I allowed the words to flow from my mouth, I felt a sense of calm and acceptance. I really felt like those words were true. I guess when you’ve never really told yourself to just be yourself, it’s a new feeling and sense. I was reminded to just be a better version of myself when I did a group meditation today. The messages I received from meditation is that to not let the emotions rise up from things I truly don’t care about. I received the reminder that it’s okay to let the annoyances of the day to just wash over me and not to let them get to me. There is something better for me than to fall victim to the noise of the world. This is all in reference to my office job – it’s not truly what I am meant to do in life, so why am I letting it bother me so much. I just need to let the emotions go and let them wash away. The emotions I get from the woes of work, is not truly me. If I allow myself to be myself, then I would just let it out to the Universe and move on.

I will continue to practise this statement out loud so that this calming feeling can spread to any day of the week.

Day 192 - A Year to Clear - Observing and Allowing Mistakes

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Lesson 192: Observing and Allowing Mistakes

Today is about making a mistake and doing nothing. That’s right… Nothing. So don’t try to fix it or manage it. Just make the mistake, allow whatever feelings to brew and let that weather pass through. It’s all about observation today.

First of all, it’s a tough act to do nothing when you make a mistake. My gut reaction is to fix it straight away. I don’t usually make mistakes because I have this sort of perfectionist mentality - that I need to try and get it right the first time so there is no points of failure.

As I trace back on my Wednesday, the only thing I forgot to do was check on a report. I had a pretty blasé attitude towards it but I wouldn’t say it’s a mistake I actually care for. Another thing I did was misinterpret a friend’s message that he was cooking dinner for himself, so I had dinner on my own and he actually wanted us to have dinner together. I mean, it didn’t really bother me either because it was a misinterpretation of a text.

I think this exercise would be more useful if I made some major mistake that wronged someone or wronged myself. I know how guilty and bad I would feel in those situations. Plus if I wasn’t allowed to fix it, those feelings would just brew until I could do something about it.

I get that the exercise is to allow awareness to come into play. I get that it’s a lesson that mistakes happen and it’s about acceptance. To do nothing would actually make me feel so uncomfortable. I am always the type to fix my stuff ups.

How did you go with this exercise?