Day 52 - A Year to Clear - Not True

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Lesson 52: Not True

“I like using the word “spin” to describe what we do with thoughts, beliefs, and stories that no longer serve us. It also has a nice double-meaning:
We can spin a web (of worries, untruths, painful memories), like a spider spins her web. Or we can chew on a thought so much that we spin in circles and go nowhere fast.”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

By spinning these negative thoughts, they cycle through and get us stuck with our continual attention. We tend to stick to these stories which really do us no good. Imagine being stuck on something negative and never being able to break the cycle of this bad habit. I am to think today what story am I spinning in and that I’d like to release.

Honestly, the current story I am spinning is my work situation. For those that don’t know, my company had a restructure which meant I am transitioning to the new role. Currently there is management arguing whether it’s a good change, whilst my department specifically got dismantled and now some people are questioning why. We should have stayed together to do the one job that people are now trying to avoid. So here I am stuck in limbo until someone decides what to do with us. It’s very demoralising at work for not only me and my team mates. I just hope at the end of it all, they don’t decide “oh hey you’ve all lost your jobs” mostly because I need this to survive.

The problem is, every day there is little bits of news that isn’t good news to my situation and this is why I keep telling my story daily. If I could release this, it would really do me some good.

Day 52 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening -The heart opens over and over again...

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Lesson 52: The heart opens over and over again...

“Lesson 52: The heart opens over and over again, until the heart within the heart, the Ananda Kanda, finally is able to become illuminated and infused with light. These openings happen in the most ordinary moments of every lifetime.”

— Sara Wiseman

Today’s lesson is about recognising what I’ve been open to this week and what I have resisted.

I can honestly say I haven’t resisted much except for a seating change at work. I just really liked the view I had overlooking the suburbs from the city. It is always refreshing to have that view and I resisted the change because I’ll miss it. But with all things in life, you have to go with the flow and roll with it.

I have been more open in just my life experiences. Monday I went to belly dance class even though I nearly had a lazy episode and didn’t want to go. But I pushed myself because I need it to get some exercise routine in my life. I had to tell myself “no Liana you’ve got to go” to pick myself up and just do it.

Tuesday I had a group meditation which was very uplifting. We worked with the crow to see what visions and messages we would get. All I remember was flying over an island which had a lot of greenery and the sea was a very distinctive blue. I kept drifting out of consciousness and jerked back into the meditation. A lot of fragmented pictures but the main message was for me to be aware of toxic people and don’t let overrun my life. Was a good experience.

And today, I went to George Maple’s gig and it was such a good gig, I’m still beaming from it. Just nice to be free and dance around with strangers enjoying and soaking up the music. There’s no better feeling of having that freedom to express yourself.

So what have you experienced this week?