Day 52 - A Year to Clear - Not True
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Lesson 52: Not True
“I like using the word “spin” to describe what we do with thoughts, beliefs, and stories that no longer serve us. It also has a nice double-meaning:
We can spin a web (of worries, untruths, painful memories), like a spider spins her web. Or we can chew on a thought so much that we spin in circles and go nowhere fast.”
By spinning these negative thoughts, they cycle through and get us stuck with our continual attention. We tend to stick to these stories which really do us no good. Imagine being stuck on something negative and never being able to break the cycle of this bad habit. I am to think today what story am I spinning in and that I’d like to release.
Honestly, the current story I am spinning is my work situation. For those that don’t know, my company had a restructure which meant I am transitioning to the new role. Currently there is management arguing whether it’s a good change, whilst my department specifically got dismantled and now some people are questioning why. We should have stayed together to do the one job that people are now trying to avoid. So here I am stuck in limbo until someone decides what to do with us. It’s very demoralising at work for not only me and my team mates. I just hope at the end of it all, they don’t decide “oh hey you’ve all lost your jobs” mostly because I need this to survive.
The problem is, every day there is little bits of news that isn’t good news to my situation and this is why I keep telling my story daily. If I could release this, it would really do me some good.