Day 74 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - With the Full Allowing...

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Lesson 74: With the Full Allowing...

We are powerful individuals. I just want to start out by saying that. We can do whatever we need to in order to get through our pain. Sometimes we think we won’t make it through but I believe it builds us to be stronger and helps us overcome situations we didn’t think we could.

Today is all about open ourselves up to a moderately painful memory and feel that emotion fully. It’s about the awareness of the pain which really opens us to that first passage of the heart. You will start to see how much you can bear it. Over time as more pain comes through various situations, you will start to realise that we can power through anything.

When I think of a painful memory, I think of a time my single mother was crying because she didn’t have enough money to feed my brother and I when we were younger. I remember her despair and how sad I felt. I remember all she could give us was baked beans on toast which really was enough. I think she was upset because she couldn’t give us a proper dinner. I remember my brother saying everything would be okay and to not worry. It still brings so much sadness to me thinking about that situation, that as a child, my brother was reassuring even through one of our lowest points. I don’t think my mum ate that night. Sometimes when I retell that story I break down into tears because I know how painful despair can be. Right now, I say share it without tears which says to me how much stronger I can be for it.

Day 74 - A Year to Clear - Be With Your Things

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Lesson 74: Be With Your Things

Today is all about sitting with your items that haven’t been used for a while and allow all the sensations to arise without judgement. If there is too much “weather”, stop the exercise and go do something that feels good instead. You can sit with as little or as many items as you want – a photograph, a ring your mother gave you, some clothes, stationary, but whatever it is, see what comes about.

I am sit sitting with some stationary. They sit in a bag and I am pretty sure they are from over 10 years ago. I used to like to write letters to friends or write in notebooks and adopt a lot of colourful pens. They made me feel happy at the time but now I don’t see any practicality to them. They are childish and I used to hold onto things because they were “mine”. I had this really obsessive way of owning my things and this continued into adulthood. I definitely want to give them away, but I haven’t had time really going through my clutter recently. I’ve pretty much tried clearing thoughts. I’m fairly neutral towards these items as they don’t serve me and they will go towards good use by some teenager out there when I donate them. Fairly simple exercise today.