Day 137 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Once You Have Gone Through...

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Lesson 137: Once You Have Gone Through These Two Particular Doors...

“Once you have gone through these two particular doors: pain and compassion, you will never go back there again. It is a one-way process, from darkness to light.”

— Sara Wiseman

I have to disagree with today’s lesson, especially in reference to the passage of pain. I do think people will go back to that part of the heart, though they may be better able to manage it. For instance, if my mother died tomorrow, I’d feel pain. To suggest that you will never go back there, as in never experience it again, is incorrect in my opinion. I know I will hurt, I know I will grieve, I know I will then move forward from it… in my own time. I understand the concept of going from darkness to light, but to suggest that all darkness is eradicated, to me, is ridiculous. I think we all need to embrace our dark side in order to learn how to move forward. To me, we will be forever going through cycles of dark and light, though to suggest that we should always remain in the light does not suggest growth to me. In fact, to me it suggests ignorance to the fact that darkness is always within us and is integral to our own make up.

I actually do not like when lessons teach the light, the light, the light. We need to acknowledge the dark side. We all have it. Sometimes it takes over for sure, but it’s in those situations that we need to feed it light, in order to maintain balance. Sure, you can just live in the light and be ignorant to the darkness, but that suggests to me that you won’t be well equipped to deal with difficult situations when they arise. It’s from the darkness we learn things about ourselves and then be able to face those challenging situations we didn’t think we could handle.

I actually like the thought of having compassion and not being any other way. I think from this lesson, that’s the part I agree with. I think if we all had more compassion, we could work better with one another. I think the world would operate in a much more peaceful state.

It’s evident here that this lesson has challenged me and I’m not about to conform to just the light side of things. I feel light and dark is a cycle – some cycles being more profound than others. I don’t think pain is something to ever get rid of. I think it’s important to feel it in order to grow. Like my example from the first paragraph, I know pain will come again one day whether I like it or not, though the way I handle it will be much better than before. This is just my opinion, and you can agree or disagree, as I know there would be a divide on a matter like this.

Day 76 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Moved Into the First Passage

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Lesson 76: When You Have Moved Into the First Passage...

When we have really moved into this first passage of the heart, we’re already opening up our awareness. With this awareness, it allows us to notice pain in everything. It’s almost like it’s opened up you to a knowing you wouldn’t have realised before. You can start to notice the way in which people distract themselves as there may be qualities you recognise from yourself or you’re just open now, that it becomes more noticeable.

Today is all about seeing who around you may be in pain. Not only will you learn that you aren’t the only one but you will also realise just how many people are in pain.

When I was working, this is always so apparent. I work in a retail shop for an occult store and there are many people who you just notice this from. People don’t really need to speak in order for me to see it. I find that it’s written all over their face. Weird how that works. I find that many people put on a mask to try and mask their pain also. They try to put on the happy face that society wants them to have on. Some people just straight out lie.

I think when I see people in pain, my natural instinct is to help, when really they might just need to figure it out for themselves, or it’s none of my business. I think because I naturally attract people because I’m so open, they will offload to me their issues because I’m accepting of all people. What I do notice is that people don’t necessarily think showing pain is something that is not widely received. It’s almost like taboo. I think it’s okay to not be okay. I just believe everyone needs to do it in their own way to overcome their own pain whether that’s getting help, reaching out or just being self-aware to move along.

Anyway, enough of me yabbering on. Notice that you aren’t the only one suffering or has suffered. You don’t have to feel bad either for having your pain and dealing with it in your own way.

Day 75 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Your Human Heart Can Hold Everything...

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Lesson 75: Your Human Heart Can Hold Everything...

By allowing the pain to come through, it allows us to really connect with our Divine soul. We can truly understand ourselves just by being open and aware.

Today is all about closing your eyes and thinking of all the painful things in your life and to feel the ache completely. After this is done, just simply open your eyes and start to live your life again.

I would share all the painful memories or trauma in my life, but there is so much to story to them that I would feel like it’s a novel. All I know is that I accept them, I have been working through them for my own personal growth and I strive to live out my beautiful life as my beautiful self. I think everyone has a story to tell, everyone has something that shook them at their core and everyone has their own way of identifying it and dealing with it.

I know I can overcome anything because I’ve hit the lowest of lows and I know the only way is up. That is a beautiful sentiment in itself. Even when you think you can’t handle the most tragic, painful moment in your life, sometimes you just surprise yourself!

Day 74 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - With the Full Allowing...

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Lesson 74: With the Full Allowing...

We are powerful individuals. I just want to start out by saying that. We can do whatever we need to in order to get through our pain. Sometimes we think we won’t make it through but I believe it builds us to be stronger and helps us overcome situations we didn’t think we could.

Today is all about open ourselves up to a moderately painful memory and feel that emotion fully. It’s about the awareness of the pain which really opens us to that first passage of the heart. You will start to see how much you can bear it. Over time as more pain comes through various situations, you will start to realise that we can power through anything.

When I think of a painful memory, I think of a time my single mother was crying because she didn’t have enough money to feed my brother and I when we were younger. I remember her despair and how sad I felt. I remember all she could give us was baked beans on toast which really was enough. I think she was upset because she couldn’t give us a proper dinner. I remember my brother saying everything would be okay and to not worry. It still brings so much sadness to me thinking about that situation, that as a child, my brother was reassuring even through one of our lowest points. I don’t think my mum ate that night. Sometimes when I retell that story I break down into tears because I know how painful despair can be. Right now, I say share it without tears which says to me how much stronger I can be for it.