Day 93 - A Year to Clear - Pins and Needles

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Lesson 93: Pins and Needles

“What you may experience are the pins and needles of waking up after holding on for an entire lifetime.—Your Spacious Self”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

We all have extremely good days where we’re buzzing with energy and others days where we all flat. This goes the same with the clearing process. We may feel clearer and less clear. Today is about recognising “growing pains” that have been coming up lately and if we can name them without judgement.

I think I am struggling with this lesson in general. I’m trying to read it and it’s just not sinking in. I know I am to recognise what’s been a pain for me on the clearing journey so far, but I can’t really think of something that is growing also. All I can recognise is what I’ve kind of always had all along and it’s the laziness and the procrastination I can sometimes have on tasks, but after I do them, I feel so much better. I think for me it’s getting started that can be the actual problem ,so that comes back to motivation. I think sometimes over thinking it can come into play, so I just need to just really let go. Still learning so hopefully by the end of the year, I’ll actually “get it”.

Day 93 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There is No Forgiveness...

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Lesson 93: There is No Forgiveness...

Today’s concept may ruffle some feathers – “there is no forgiveness”. We are learning to accept our second passage of the heart which is compassion so rather than take on forgiveness, we should use compassion instead. The idea of forgiveness means we hold a power over another or them over us, though by taking the approach of compassion, we may see the differences in how we use our energy. Today we are to hold another person we have deemed that we were wronged, hurt or betrayed by, with compassion, rather than applying forgiveness. See how you feel when you take this different approach.

I am kind of 50/50 on this. I think when you have been wronged quite badly, both forgiveness and compassion can be applied. I think applying compassion is definitely a good mentality to have. It’s not something I had ever thought about until I started doing this course. I applied compassion to my mother’s ex-boyfriend who said some hurtful things to me. I know I have abundance in my life where he may be lacking. So even though what he said hurt me at the time, I could only apply compassion now after some reflection. Some would say I forgive him because I definitely felt hurt. It’s only now as an adult, that I can apply compassion. If you had asked me to apply compassion as a teenager, I would have probably old you to fuck off because I was hurt and my feelings needed to be validated. It’s only upon some self-awareness and reflection, you could even say becoming wiser, that I can apply compassion for this person.

It’s a tough one today. A lot of the message is that forgiveness has no use to you, but I am in 50/50 agreement and disagreement. I think we hold the power of forgiveness when people hold power over us with the bad things they did to us. If anything, we’ve given power over to others when they’ve wronged us and they win by making us feel down and hurt. I think it’s important to gain our power back, in our own ways, in order to forgive and apply compassion to those, even when they don’t necessarily deserve it. I think it’s tough in itself to apply compassion but it does open us up to be more peaceful.

I’ll leave this with you to ponder on….