Day 93 - A Year to Clear - Pins and Needles

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Lesson 93: Pins and Needles

“What you may experience are the pins and needles of waking up after holding on for an entire lifetime.—Your Spacious Self”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

We all have extremely good days where we’re buzzing with energy and others days where we all flat. This goes the same with the clearing process. We may feel clearer and less clear. Today is about recognising “growing pains” that have been coming up lately and if we can name them without judgement.

I think I am struggling with this lesson in general. I’m trying to read it and it’s just not sinking in. I know I am to recognise what’s been a pain for me on the clearing journey so far, but I can’t really think of something that is growing also. All I can recognise is what I’ve kind of always had all along and it’s the laziness and the procrastination I can sometimes have on tasks, but after I do them, I feel so much better. I think for me it’s getting started that can be the actual problem ,so that comes back to motivation. I think sometimes over thinking it can come into play, so I just need to just really let go. Still learning so hopefully by the end of the year, I’ll actually “get it”.

Day 45 - A Year to Clear - Your Indicator

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Lesson 45: Your Indicator to Dial It Down

Today I am to recognise one issue or thing in my life that annoys me and gets under my skin. Those types of emotions towards it is an “indicator to dial it down”. Stephanie’s lesson talks about those chemicals building up that stops us dead in our tracks. I am to notice when fight or flight responses kick in unnecessarily and attempt to dial it back.

I seriously think the only thing bothering me that really gets my blood boiling is my situation at work. It’s not within my control and it’s waiting on answers. I try not to think about it but when you feel like you’re constantly shafted, it’s hard to keep a positive mindset. We spend most of our time at work so when it’s not going well, it can really throw off your day… but every day. The way I currently dial it back is to look at my post it note that we established from lesson 41 to “just breathe” and I don’t think about it anymore. I just try and focus on my tasks so I don’t get stuck in that cycle.

I believe to really dial it back, you need to recognise the emotion rising within you, and stop to think if it really serves you. It does take awareness for this to happen. But I learned yesterday at a meet up group about personal development, that fight or flight response is also due to us being forced into situations that push our comfort zone as well. So if we start to recognise those emotions in those uncomfortable situations, we can then work towards overcoming any stressful or fearful thought. Sounds easy, but it takes work really. Something I am still working on for sure. It’s all about taking a moment to think about what doesn’t serve you and retraining the brain to think differently.

Day 44 - A Year to Clear - Fight or Flight

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Lesson 44: Fight or Flight

When we’re pushed to the brink of our comfort zones, this pings alarms in our brain and sets off the fight or flight response. Clearing seems to trigger our fight or flight response because there are some points when you find discomfort in the tasks at hand.

Today’s lesson is to dial back our tasks or time on an activity if it triggers a stressful response. Today I am meant to do this. I didn’t really have any tasks that triggered stress on me today. The only thing I did have was someone else bothering me with a task at work, which has been ongoing for over a week and that made me frustrated, as it was going against our normal processes and it somehow became my job to do everything. I can’t even say that was stressful as it was more annoying.

I am not sure if I dialled anything back to prevent stress. It was a pretty routine day at work, I went to a meet up about self-improvement, came home, ate dinner and am here writing now. I recognise there will be stressful times but today was not one of them. I will keep this lesson in mind for future.