Day 45 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - There is the illusion..

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Lesson 45: There is the illusion..

Today I am to think about how much control I have over my life, if I’m sure about that and to imagine the universe having a better plan for me.

I agree that we do not have complete control of our lives. I know this all too well when my life went out of my control last year and I questioned life itself. When you really feel life spiralling out of control, you really question why. I know last year’s trauma was a pivotal point for me, and I just couldn’t see the value in life when everything seemed to go wrong. I know now, that was just the universe building me up to be a stronger person today, and proving to me that I can overcome any adversity. I was shown that I could go to the very bottom and have the power to climb back out.

I realise this is a story I spout a lot. It’s my story and it definitely shaped how I became the person I am today. I don’t even care that I repeat myself because I had my awakening through my adversity. I suffered a loss in an abortion, I didn’t know why the situation was happening to me at the time, but I’ve grown so much from it because I angrily asked the universe what was the point. I got my answer in 2 angel fish. They were sent to me and I’ve never really doubted what the universe brings me since that connection.

It’s why I’ve chosen to just live through experience. Every situation has something to be gained from it. A little insight maybe? A little fun? A little memory? Life is to be experienced and not just a set of tasks to be accomplished. We need to LIVE and not just exist. I know I want to look back on my life and can say I really loved the experience. The day I move on, I’ll be ready because I can say I truly lived. I believe the universe is sending me what I need when I need it. So it’s just being open to what comes.