Day 226 - A Year to Clear - Change the Paradigm of Self-Neglect
/Lesson 226: Change the Paradigm of Self-Neglect
Each of these lessons have been to focus on self-care. Self-care is part of clearing practises of letting go of thoughts from self or others, that don’t allow your space to open up for rest and nourishment. We need to condition ourselves that self-care is important. It’s not a selfish act when it allows you to be your best for yourself and others. Today we are to think about the ways we have placed ourselves last and what are we doing to change this self-neglect.
I think the way I neglect myself is not allowing time to read. I know it’s a simple hobby or thing to do, but I haven’t done enough this year. I am not sure why I can’t get into books and I’ve tried. And, it’s not that the story isn’t captivating, I find that maybe my concentration is elsewhere or I’m too tired to grasp what I’m reading. I need books to expand my mind and imagination. I think what I need to do is grab my book and go out in nature. Somewhere that allows no distraction and I have the peacefulness of the outside world.
I also believe I am robbing myself of just quiet time. I have so many plans all the time that I don’t give myself enough alone time. Sometimes I feel like I really need to be around people, though it might not be best for me in hindsight. I guess I take away much deserved rest and alone time. I need to recognise those moments where I need to be with just me.
The only other self-neglect I’ve imposed on myself is not focusing on the writing I should be for these books that exist in my head. I haven’t sat down and just typed it out. I feel like this activity would be such a release and nourishing activity as I reach the depths of my mind. I haven’t made the time to focus on this goal as so much in my life has been going on. Time management is what I need. I wish we didn’t have to work with time. I wish I could do things in my own “time” and not the confines of a clock.
So, in what ways have you placed yourself last?