Day 242 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Once You Reach Heart of Connection...

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Lesson 242: Once You Reach Heart of Connection...

As you reach Oneness, you feel your old self or parts of your old patterns start to shed away. Connection allows you to open and expand. You will start to let go… of everything. Today we are to think about a time in our life when we let everything go and if there are parts of our lives now that could use some letting go.

I think as I developed in my spiritual journey I started letting go of old feelings that held me back. My medium teacher did hypnotherapy with me to let go of thoughts that definitely held me back. I had issues with my dad not really being a father though I’ve let that situation go. I believe that he has no power to bring me down, so I can try to build a relationship with him. If it goes south again, I don’t think it would bother me as it did as a teenager. I let go of limiting beliefs that I needed to be skinny to please someone. Comments people have made over the years are quite damaging for an impressionable child/teenager and it consumed my life because I wasn’t “perfect” in my body shape. I say fuck that! I am just me and if people have a problem with my body, then that’s on them. I couldn’t give a shit about what they think of me. I accept myself so they should too.

The biggest challenge (in which I thought I had fully dealt with) is this notion that I am unlovable and not deserving of love. In the past month I was struggling to see that I deserved love. I think the dating climate of the modern world is challenging and there is room for people to not be genuine. So I think I felt defeated – like how am I supposed to meet someone when every encounter I have, people just want sex. Now, there’s nothing wrong with that but I state in my dating profile that I’m not after that. I just felt like this dating world is crushing my hopes as it felt like I am never going to meet someone. From there, I had these defeating thoughts that maybe no one will love me and maybe I had done something to warrant no success in love. I had to revisit this in my shadow work and just re-wire myself to say “I do deserve love” “I will find love” “If I do good deeds, good things will come”. So with my guides, I took that limiting belief and sent it back out to the Universe as I don’t want that in my being anymore. Sometimes you got to recognise what needs releasing in order to change up the energy in your life.

Right now I think I’m good for letting go what I need to. What about you?