Day 46 - A Year to Clear - Clearing List

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Lesson 46: Small Steps - Clearing List

Today’s lesson is to write down all the things or issues that I want to release, listing 1 as the least challenging and 10 as the most challenging. Any thought or object that stirs some kind of emotional response needs to go on the list. Once the list is complete, I am to notice the sensations that arise.

The problem I have with this lesson is that a lot of buried thought sin my subconscious is coming up from time to time. Sometimes I don’t even realise I am to deal with them for release but I know they will come up over time.

If I am to get my list together of what’s happening right now:

1.       Least Challenging – Physical clutter

2.       My own self doubt

3.       Fear of getting pregnant again (without a partner) and having to have an abortion

4.       My laziness

5.       Memories of old lovers

6.       That I may never find a partner

7.       Most Challenging - Relationship with my dad

This is all I can think of right now. I know these are definitely things that will take time to work through. I do have a goal by the end of the year to slowly release these. They are my challenges and I really think they are as challenging as each other. I can’t even really look at this list because it’s some hard truths as well. I am literally struggling to read it again through some avoidance. I know they are holding me back. I think as I release, it means I become more open. I look forward to that day when these are cleared.