Day 53 - A Year to Clear - It is Safe to Let Go
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Lesson 53: It is Safe to Let Go
Today’s lesson revolves around thinking of a story that I tell myself that is not true and what I’d like to release. I am to write it down and complete the following sentences:
- It is safe to let go of this story because____ [Notice and allow the part of you that does not feel so safe].
- I know that this story is not true because_____
I am meant to write everything that comes to my mind within a minute or until I feel complete. I decided to meditate on this story that’s been coming up lately that I really need to release.
Last year I really liked my friend, we slept together, certain things were said that gave me an impression things might go further, maybe it was in my head, I’m not sure, and don’t think that’s relevant, but after 2 failed methods of contraception, I fell pregnant, had an abortion against my own values because it meant I’d do pregnancy on my own. The toughest moments of my life was during this time and I hold onto feelings from this situation that are just not true. I hold onto the fact that I think I’m not worthy of love. I think I deserve love, but the memories of that situation, make me think that I’ll never find a partner that truly understands the kind of love I offer. During this time, I had to not only get over the feelings I had for my friend, I had to also recognise I lost my friend at the same time, as well as deal with depression of that abortion. There was a lot of questions of “why is this happening to me?” “what did I do to deserve this?”. You can’t help but feel this way when you’re faced with such trauma. I felt unloved and worthless in that moment. There’s an ugliness that brews inside that can take over and somehow it’s all you’re blinded by.
So I decided to meditate on this for release. It’s popped up many a time in recent weeks for me to deal with and release. I faced some truths. I asked my guides and the Universe to really let me confront those truths. These included:
· My friend was in his own turmoil that he needed to sort out himself
· There was nothing I could do to convince him that he could be with me
· He was never going to be strong enough to deal with the abortion like I needed him to
· He wasn’t the right person for me
· I deserve someone that truly understands me and accepts me for who I am
· It’s not my fault for trying
To finish the sentences I need to for today’s lesson:
- It is safe to let go of this story because it’s the past, the past cannot be changed, this person wasn’t good for me, the Universe is here for me and I was to learn from that experience.
- I know that this story is not true because I am a powerful being with much to offer and just because one person didn’t love me, doesn’t mean I won’t ever find the right partner.