Day 82 - A year of Spiritual Awakening - It is Impossible to Skip Steps...
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Lesson 82: It is Impossible to Skip Steps...
To be truly open to accept your pain can be a fast process if you want it to be. You need to be ready. You can be ready now and ask the Universe to allow you to feel all the pain now and then move onwards to a greater version of you. This all depends on how you feel and when you want to release.
Yesterday, I went to my hypnotherapy session with my medium teacher. The past traumas I’ve had and wanted to let go of the attached emotions and feelings include: my father mentally and emotionally abusing me, my ex-boyfriend in how he treated me, past lovers, the racism I experienced, my abortion and that whole situation, my mum’s ex-boyfriend saying nasty words to me and an ex-friend who really let me down. I have truly felt all this pain over the years and recent months. I think I have lived with it too long and that’s why I sought out hypnotherapy because I truly didn’t want to be hindered by this anymore. Yes, I could have worked through it myself and it would have been dissipated over time, but I just wanted a good release.
I was put into a deep trance or meditation if you will. There were times when I really could hear her words but others times I was zoning out – this is normal. There were moments where I thought to myself “oh that’s something really nice to do” but for the life of me don’t actually remember what she said…and maybe I’m not meant to remember as it will unfold. I actually felt like I may have fallen asleep but whatever bad feelings she erased, she placed positive things for me into my subconscious. That’s what this hypnotherapy does – erase the attached feeling or emotion you have to a situation, which in fact causes your own responses to day to day life situations. For instance, I immediately go on a defensive if I hear people talk about Asians in a bad manner because I was racially abused in my younger years for being Asian. Another example is that I’ve been called ugly by others and made to feel ugly from my dad, this has evolved over time where I feel bad about myself if I look in the mirror and assumed I’m not pretty enough etc. My teacher really took those negative reactions away. The memory still remains but I don’t get any bad feeling towards the situation or person now. It’s really an odd feeling because it’s new. I don’t know what she did, but whatever is filled in my subconscious now is all positive.
I don’t look on those past memories and feel bad about myself anymore. I can’t wait to see what unfolds as the days go on and I start living to the truest version of myself. It’s quite exciting.