Day 82 - A Year to Clear - Tour of Your Home

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Lesson 82: Tour of Your Home

Friday’s lesson is all about meditating and taking a tour of your home. Close your eyes and imagine yourself in your own energy field/bubble. Starting at the front door, imagine yourself going through and note to yourself what you notice first. I notice every time I walk through my door that it is really heavy and I notice the shoes to the right. Go through every door and every room and notice through meditation all the areas that have stuck energy. My home is quite small and open living, so I notice everything. I looked at the kitchen, noticed the mess in the living room, walked up the stairs to my bedroom area and bathroom. It’s all about noticing the sensations rise as your walk through your home and notice objects or areas that have stuck energy via meditation.

Focus on one object and imagine there is a chair infront of it and sit down with this object. Mine is a toaster that is on the floor in my hallway needing to be given away. Without judgement, how does this item feel for you? And answer the following statements based on what the object reveals to you:

What I find most frustrating about being this space or object is­­­­­­­ ­­­­_______

What I find most frustrating about being this space or object is______

What’s missing in my life is______

What I really need right now is______

And one way you can support me is______

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My answers:

What I find most frustrating about being this space or object is­­­­­­­ that it’s taking up space for no reason

What I find most frustrating about being this space or object is that’s it’s an eyesore in which for some reason I can’t move

What’s missing in my life is an open living space

What I really need right now is to clear items that hold no purpose

And one way you can support me is by letting go.

Once you’ve got the answers from this object, reflect on the space and area that it’s in. Be sure to attend to this space in real life in the upcoming days and you can do what you need with it. After this, return to your front door in the meditation, leave a blessing for your home and exit. Return to your body here in the real world. You may have noticed things in your meditation that you didn’t before and the exercise was very much an awareness tool for your clearing.

Day 82 - A year of Spiritual Awakening - It is Impossible to Skip Steps...

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Lesson 82: It is Impossible to Skip Steps...

To be truly open to accept your pain can be a fast process if you want it to be. You need to be ready. You can be ready now and ask the Universe to allow you to feel all the pain now and then move onwards to a greater version of you. This all depends on how you feel and when you want to release.

Yesterday, I went to my hypnotherapy session with my medium teacher. The past traumas I’ve had and wanted to let go of the attached emotions and feelings include: my father mentally and emotionally abusing me, my ex-boyfriend in how he treated me, past lovers, the racism I experienced, my abortion and that whole situation, my mum’s ex-boyfriend saying nasty words to me and an ex-friend who really let me down. I have truly felt all this pain over the years and recent months. I think I have lived with it too long and that’s why I sought out hypnotherapy because I truly didn’t want to be hindered by this anymore. Yes, I could have worked through it myself and it would have been dissipated over time, but I just wanted a good release.

I was put into a deep trance or meditation if you will. There were times when I really could hear her words but others times I was zoning out – this is normal. There were moments where I thought to myself “oh that’s something really nice to do” but for the life of me don’t actually remember what she said…and maybe I’m not meant to remember as it will unfold. I actually felt like I may have fallen asleep but whatever bad feelings she erased, she placed positive things for me into my subconscious. That’s what this hypnotherapy does – erase the attached feeling or emotion you have to a situation, which in fact causes your own responses to day to day life situations. For instance, I immediately go on a defensive if I hear people talk about Asians in a bad manner because I was racially abused in my younger years for being Asian. Another example is that I’ve been called ugly by others and made to feel ugly from my dad, this has evolved over time where I feel bad about myself if I look in the mirror and assumed I’m not pretty enough etc. My teacher really took those negative reactions away. The memory still remains but I don’t get any bad feeling towards the situation or person now. It’s really an odd feeling because it’s new. I don’t know what she did, but whatever is filled in my subconscious now is all positive.

 I don’t look on those past memories and feel bad about myself anymore. I can’t wait to see what unfolds as the days go on and I start living to the truest version of myself. It’s quite exciting.