Day 47 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Heart is Closed

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Lesson 47: The heart is closed four ways...

“Lesson 47: The heart is closed four ways: first by the physical body, next by the emotional armour we all wear, next by the physical heart itself, and finally, at the very center of everything, is your inner heart, the heart within your heart, your secret heart: Ananda Kanda. This is what desires to be cracked open to the world.”

— Sara Wiseman

So I had a pretty shitty week and decided that I needed my weekend. So no lessons and I just wanted to do my own thing. It means I play catch up but I needed a bit of sanity back.

Friday’s lesson talks about Ananda Kanda. I didn’t know what this was until I googled it. From my understanding, Ananda Kanda is the “root of bliss” and it is the spiritual heart. I feel like it’s your true intent and true being. Just the purest of love, intention and desire.

I am meant to recall my heart within my heart and even if my heart is locked away, it can be opened.  I thought meditation is a good way to gain some answers.

So my meditation started with my walking through my heart into some white light. There I could see my secret heart. It was a white ball of light and I looked upon it. From there, I held up the light and splashed it over my face, kind of like when you go to wash your face in a sink. The light spread through my body and suddenly it was like I was living as my purest self. There was me, very childlike and the message I took from it, was that to remember what it was like to be a child when you looked upon the world with amazement, everything seemed fresh and you’re fired by wonder. For me, it’s about regaining some of that passion we had as children, where we were confident to say and do anything. There is no reason why we can’t have that same brightness as adults. Obviously not to say and do things that are offensive, but to really drive yourself to those depths be free. I really felt free in this meditation.

I then had a wand and it was like when you have a sparkler, the end was lit and I was just painting random patterns of light whilst dancing around. The wand also made pictures of healing the world. I can be a healer, maybe not on a global scale, or maybe very much so on a global scale, but it was a reminder that I can become this greater person. I know I want to help people, even if my words or actions made a difference in one person’s life, that’s a good uplifting experience and I know it’s going to take a lot of hard work to get there.

The final images I got shown was me raising wands with others in a collective. I was also holding hands with them in a circle, sort of skipping around in a circle. It was a very united and safe feeling. It showed me that the community I seek in the tasks, goals and dreams that I have will form in time. There are people out there like me and will help me on my way. It also showed me the peace there is to be had on this earth if we all work together.  Acts of kindness do go a long way.

So in conclusion, I feel like I have to stick to what I’m doing, expand my knowledge and work hard on my dreams. I need to remember to have the same awe as a child, because there’s a certain calmness to approaching life with amazement, and not get bogged down by trivial matters. We can live a bit freer if don’t let the worry cloud our minds.

Day 40 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - We Have Been Led

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Lesson 40: We have been led to believe...

We have been led to believe in society that bigger, faster, stronger is what makes us feel successful and what we desire. We’ve been conditioned in this way from when we’re young from the words of others, famous people, advertisements, movies, music, family, friends etc. Whatever method it may have been, we’ve at one point in our life looked at ourselves, looked at how we’re tracking, looked at what we have achieved and maybe have told ourselves that it’s not good enough or we need more. There would have been a moment in your life where you’re a culprit of this and that’s okay!

Today’s lesson talks about the Divine leading us to what we need and this may be slower, gradual and possibly less path. We know it in our hearts as to what we need, and today we are to recognise what resonates, and where have we been led to lately.

I have been countless of times led back to the message to start writing my books. I didn’t know how to start because I was so focused on developing the characters first, and the world I want to create, that the message that came to me was quite simple: just write and write one page a year so that when you get to the end of that year, you’ll have a book. The message was quite clear that you don’t need to have every single detail planned out and that it will come to you naturally. So I started on this journey and can’t wait for what comes when I eventually finish writing book one. There are three that I want to do.

I think in general, I’ve been led to just do more things that make me happy. Just get the creativity happening and study going. Apart from this, there are a lot of buried memories coming up that I need to deal with in order to let go and be the best version of myself. It’s a slow process but I feel good things happening this year especially once I fully deal with everything I need to.