Day 80 - A Year to Clear - Not All Spaces Feel the Same

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Lesson 80: Not All Spaces Feel the Same

Do you ever visit places and sense the energy of the place? Some places feel really good and some places you visit just don’t feel right?

Today is about recognising the homes or buildings you may visit that feel good or bad to you. Letting the sensations arise and do it without judgement.

I personally don’t like going into clubs because it makes me anxious. I don’t like the feeling of being boxed in with no room to breathe. This can happen in crowded places also. Even if work spaces are cramped, I get this sort of claustrophobic feeling and then anxiety settles in for a bit. I have just learned to accept this about myself because it really depends of the circumstances and how I would feel in tightly packed rooms.

I don’t think I have ever stepped into someone’s home and not felt good. I think I can be around people who make it seem like I’m not wanted there but the actual space always feel good to me. I don’t think I’ve ever stepped into someone’s home and felt some negative wave come over me. I like to view people’s home as their charm. Each home has personality and I appreciate that. I think the only times where I may have felt out of place is in hotel rooms. Sometimes it just doesn’t feel right but that’s because so many people pass through which means there is so much energy flow in and out of that particular room.

That’s all I’ve got. What do you feel in particular homes and buildings?

Day 36 - A Year to Clear - Weather Patterns

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Lesson 36: Weather Patterns

““Sweaty palms — weather. Shallow breathing — weather. Worry that I made a mistake — weather. Worry that someone will not care for the laptop I just gave away — weather. Memory of having something taken away from me as a child — weather. Grieving loss — weather.

Contrast those patterns with: acceptance — not weather. Trust that there is more where that came from — not weather. Witnessing the weather — not weather. Pure, clear, and uncluttered, these states of being are the real deal.”—Your Spacious Self”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

New week equals a new theme – “Watching the Weather”.

Stephanie mentions all the physical sensations, attachment and limiting belief as weather. These are the clouds that hang over us. The idea is that these weather patterns will lift to the point that we don’t personalise it anymore or identify it as our own.

I suffered anxiety today thinking about going to work today. We moved buildings and for some reason, my thoughts were overwhelmed by losing my way and not knowing where to go when I got there. On top of this, as I started walking to a different part of the city, I was even more overwhelmed by how crowded it was. There was just too many people at once and I wasn’t used to it that early in the morning. My last routine was in the quieter part of the city so it was all very new.

Not sure why I thought I’d feel so nervous when people in my workplace are friendly. It was very odd to get myself worked up over it. Based on this week’s theme, it shows I do have some learning to do in order to “witness the weather” rather than clouding myself. Looking forward to this week and what I’m about to engage in.

Day 35 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 5 - Tuning In

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Lesson 35: Check In WEEK 5 - Tuning In

Today is the last week’s theme check in of “Tuning in”. Very much focused on the senses that we tend to lead with, find out what it revealed about myself as well as viewing spaces differently and the people in them.

I learned more about what is developing within me. On this spiritual journey, I am opening up my mind, loving and accepting people more, whilst not trying to take on other people’s energy that may leave a cloud hanging over me. I am pleasantly surprised by things I pick up along the way that adds value to my life. I feel like I’ll be learning until the end. The wealth of knowledge that enhances my experience but also me as a person, just continues to grow and expand constantly. I also feel I gain a lot of my own insight and mental clarity through meditation and gain answers that are already within me. Funny how that works - We are wise if we choose to be No matter how we are guided, there are answers we can find if we just look within. We always need to start with ourselves before we can help others. I have never known that to be true, more so than now.

I know that spaces where I don’t feel right are the ones I will try to avoid. I think trusting those initial instincts mean everything. You aren’t a bad person for wanting to leave a room or avoiding it entirely if it doesn’t sit well with you. I know that I need to protect myself more from other people’s negative energy. Whether you choose to believe it or not, negativity spreads like wildfire. It can take one passing comment or feeling, to spread within people in a room. That collective energy is powerful and we should always try to turn it around into a positive environment. I know if it gets too much and I feel it in my body, I will just walk away. I can’t be around people who don’t want to reason and take on a better approach. It’s something I’ve noticed more in the last year or so, and I will continue to stand for my own values on this.

Even now I recognise I’m being dragged down from work and have some negative thoughts in my head. I am aware of them fully and actively trying to seek some goodness to enrich my life outside of work. It’s a bit tough managing but I know only I can turn it around. I know I will figure it out and work won’t bog my mine and exhaust me as it currently does. My work situation is definitely out of my control, but I need to take control on how I can feel positive at work. It’s tough when you spend most of your time there and i's now pushing me harder to work towards my goals.

It’s been a good week, honing in on my senses and being aware. Gained some further insight to this journey which I’m appreciative of.
 

Day 33 - A Year to Clear - Energy in the Room

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Lesson 33: Energy in the Room

Catching up from another hectic week. The next few weekends are going to be like this but I’ll do my posts when I can.

Friday’s lesson revolves around noticing the energy in the room and being aware. I am to notice which room feels more “contracted”, and be aware of that more over the one that makes me feel good. I am to notice if my breathing changes, but know there is nothing to do, and just notice what’s happening.

Friday all I did was go to work, then I worked from home because we were moving offices, my mate Ben came over and then we went to a gig. The room I felt so free in was at the gig. I like to take notice of the type of people that go to enjoy the music we’re about to embrace. I like that we are well having a shared experience.

Work felt a little contracted because we were forced to pack up our things before our scheduled time. It was a bit of a “thanks for the late notice” type of feeling in the room, but I just got on with it. I didn’t take notice of my breathing, even though I read the lesson beforehand. I just let it flow. Even though there was a feeling of frustration in the room, there was nothing I could do to control it. So the only thing I could do was go with the flow.

I find the only times I feel a sense of “contraction” in the room is when others are angry or frustrated at something. I feel that energy emanating and sometimes I absorb when I don’t want to. It can be very taxing on the body. I try not to let it impact me but sometimes that is easier said than done.  I also try to avoid those type of toxic situations when I can.

Another lesson in awareness and stuck energy… I found that if I practised this too much I might overthink the feeling in the room and then my own feelings. I know to avoid bad feelings in the room but I wouldn’t want to assess every situation as soon as I enter the room. Do you know what I mean? I feel like it’s better to focus on what feels good and trying to move stuck energy in a room if need be.

Day 30 - A Year to Clear - Feel to Heal

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Lesson 30: Feel to Heal

Today we are to reflect on the following: Using our six senses reveals our blocks. If we are to be witness to those sensations without attachment, it will release these blockages. Any feelings and emotions that come up, we should let arise without judging them.

I have found a lot has been coming up from my intuition and sight. I can’t say I’ve used my sense of touch, smell, hearing or taste. I am foreign to the concept of using those other four senses for clearing though I’m sure this course will unfold it.

Recently I’ve been receiving images of past conflicts, buried memories and uncomfortable situations that I maybe didn’t fully deal with at the time. I’m actually happy that all of these circumstances that once bothered me are resurfacing. Why? Because then I can actually deal with it and release it. I want every nook and cranny of my mind to be free of these limiting thoughts. Even if I’ve associated it with a particular feeling, I want to be able to work through this, as part of my own personal growth. Like yesterday, two past lovers came up and I know I need to work through those as part of my release. I do not want anything buried in my subconscious to just linger. So as I’ve been given bit by bit, I can relate these back to the senses of intuition and sight – sight in the sense of replaying how it went down and recognising things I never noticed before.

Interested to know how the other four senses come about but I guess I won’t know until the time comes to use them.