Day 38 - A Year to Clear - Passing Clouds

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Lesson 38: Passing Clouds

“If you consider that every thought pattern that doesn’t align with your highest purpose and deepest knowing is like a passing cloud or squall that blocks the sunlight of your being, it becomes easier to let it go.

What are you ready to let go of today?”
— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

Clouds that I would like to pass are the continuous self-doubt and questioning of my skills and ability. I tend to question my actions and I guess it’s that fear we tend to have. Fear of not doing it right and failing. I need to re-route my thinking into a more positive “yes I can do it” type of attitude. I know the only person limiting myself is me. It’s like a battle in my head. Sometimes it’s “I can’t do this” and then I counter it with a “yes Liana you can do this”. If those self-deprecating thoughts can go away and I can be forever pushed in a “you can do it” attitude, that’d be great.

I think because I am a bit of perfectionist when it comes to any skills, I can be a bit hard on myself also. It’s silly because I am learning, and I hold myself in high regard, so I don’t like to fail. As I type this, I’m thinking gosh I’m a wonder. One minute there is fear and disbelief mixed with a hint of not ever wanting to fail. It just seems so unrealistic in hindsight.

I want this all released – failure is good to grow from so I would like to release that idealistic pressure I place on myself. I also would like to release all the thoughts that put me down when I’m developing into my own person. My journey will have bumps but it’s just part of the ride. Replace everything with a slowly but surely progressive attitude for my path. I send this out to the universe!