Day 42 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Your Own Particular Needs...

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Lesson 42: Your own particular needs...

We are led on experiences that are meant for our highest self. Our soul path is one we have to trust even if following blindly. We don’t always have the answers and really, we aren’t always meant to. Our future isn’t set and we are always making choices that allows for experiences to flow.

Today I am to ask myself – do I know where I am going? If I have no idea, can I let go and trust, open myself to the mystery and what does it feel like to walk blindly?

I don’t know exactly where I am going but I have a little bit of an idea. I mean, I am currently on my own spiritual awakening and my journey is amazing, in that I am constantly learning, not only about myself but something much more larger than myself. I find it hard to let go of past difficulties though I am currently working through those situations that plague my mind, most of which is buried in my subconscious. I am putting a lot of trust in the universe to send me what I need when I am ready. It’s a slow release for something much grander for my life. I just know I’m here to make a difference and I look forward to it.

I am finding that my living through experience is going really well. There’s so much to be gained when you start to live like this and there is a hunger to learn more. I want to make sure my life is meaningful , not for anyone else but enriching for me. I might seem late to the party as a lot of my experiences are being experienced now that I’m 33, though I find it’s never too late to achieve what you want in life. I am not going to be the limiting factor in anything I do.

It’s been hard to let go and trust the universe having a plan. There has been a lot of doubt in my skills and ability, but I believe that it’s something new to me, and therefore that’s where that fear sets in. Definitely pushing comfort zones and I will continue doing this. The path is wide open and I’m just taking it as it comes.

Day 26 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Dreams

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Lesson 26: If you have already started...

Today's lesson has me thinking about how the Universe set me onto my path, if it has already go me onto the path of pursuing my dreams and to make a list of the people who have helped create my dreams.

If my dream is to become a writer, the one person who has encouraged me to achieve this goal, is my best mate Brett. He has always told me to write every day, even if it's not much but just to get something down. Now I haven't been doing this, until now with these 365 day challenges and blog posts. I used to write poems every day in some notebooks but after what seemed like a succession of unfortunate events, I lost my spark. Even though me keeping this online journal is not writing in the sense of a book, I feel like its good practise to continue into something bigger as I'm made to write every day about the lesson at hand. Every now and then I will post a poem on my blog. Not forced poems but whatever comes at the time. 

Another person who has encouraged me to write is my mate Nasiha. I remember some time ago, I told her I have nothing to write about. And she was like "nooooo, your journey is worth documenting". So that's why I also took on these 365 day challenges because I feel like they are part of my journey and it forces me to write every day. I didn't think my journey was worth documenting. Heck, I don't think many people read my blog but I figure if someone out there might resonate and want to know how to I'm going on my spiritual path and my year to clear, whether that be a stranger or friend, then it's worth it right?

I feel like my spiritual path has been part need and part dream. The universe encouraged me on this path and let me remember the person I wanted to be. My mate Joanna continues to encourage me in this path. That me growing into the person I am meant to be is going to be a continuous knowlege ride but it's who I truly am. I guess it's nice to know someone out there supports you in your witchcraft and light work without judgement. I know it's just an extension of me and I'm looking forward to whom i become. I know I want to help people in this path. So, I feel like it's all good things that are going to happen, if I work hard for it.