Day 187 - A Year to Clear - Live Wholeheartedly

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Lesson 187: Live Wholeheartedly

Today’s lesson goes through a researcher named Dr Brene Brown shares a story about living wholeheartedly and how it separates us. There are those who live with the sense of worthiness and love and those who struggle. To have true connection with another person, we have to allow ourselves to be really seen. We are to think about what ways do we allow ourselves to be really seen by others? Do you tend to hide and why? Or do you find that you can truly be yourself around people?

I personally feel like I don’t reveal my whole truth with some people whilst others it’s easy to. And, it’s not because I don’t trust or care about that person to show my whole truth, it’s that when I show the dark parts, not everyone can handle it. I can only reveal my darkest truths to certain people and that’s okay. I realise that not everyone is best equipped to deal with the dark sides of life and in my mind, I’ve separated those really dark times from them, because I guess I’ve tested the waters with everyone and know who I can go to for certain support.

In terms of being showing my truth, I try to live as honestly as I can. I think I was scared and hid the fact that I do spiritual work and witchcraft but I’m kind of done doing that now. I don’t think I’m hurting anyone in what I do and if people don’t want to try to understand what I do, then I don’t want to hear the negativity. I am the best I have ever been and that is based on my spiritual journey. I don’t really hide what I am anymore and I shouldn’t be made to feel bad for what I do. I’m living purest to my heart and I feel that sometimes, it’s the words and actions of others that puts me down. If I feel my best in this path, then I should be allowed to show how proud I am in it. This is what I’m doing to show more of myself so people know who I really am. I don’t want to feel hidden but I want to be real for myself but also show that to the world.

Day 187 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - In This World of Electronica...

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Lesson 187: In This World of Electronica...

In a world of social media, it’s easy to hide our true selves. We can wear a mask if we so choose because it’s easy. Even though the internet has provided a way of connecting, do you feel that the connections are true and are useful for you?

I personally feel that it’s easy for some to hide behind a computer screen when it comes to social media. I think it’s caused an avenue for more bullying and people to just be mean in general. I do find that social media also distracts people from truly doing useful activities. I am a culprit of wasting time on social media because it doesn’t take brain power, and sometimes I feel I need something mind numbing when it’s been a tough day.

I do find social media has helped me connect with more people like me though. Without it, I wouldn’t have found the people I needed to on my spiritual path. I like social media for that aspect. The connections I can find locally and internationally have really benefited my life and I do feel like those connections are true and solid. I actually wouldn’t have met my mentors if I didn’t have social media. I truly believe without it, I would be lost as to where to get the guidance I truly needed.

So overall, I value social media for opening the avenues to the people I needed on my path. Without it, I may have been just as lost like when I was a teenager and didn’t know what to do with my life. I see the friendships I’ve discovered as utmost importance and value. How about you?

Day 186 - A Year to Clear - Tell the Truth

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Lesson 186: Tell the Truth

Today is about telling the truth in your clearing practises. The element of truth comes about when applying awareness to your courage in your clearing. I was having a bit of trouble trying to understand today’s lesson. The message is that if you go into a task without a thought and hoping for the best result, it’s not really doing a good job. In addition to this, when you “tell the truth about your experience”, it’s about conscious effort to allow you to feel. Clearing allows you to feel. I guess that’s the point? Even though clearing brings about emotions you might not necessarily want to feel, for example being uncomfortable, at the end of the day, once it’s cleared you’ll feel good about your space and how you feel in it. It’s not an easy task and was never going to be and it’s about the courage you can possess to overcome those things that hold you back.

So, telling the truth in this experience is the whole rollercoaster of emotions. I know it hasn’t been easy and some days I don’t clear at all. I just do it when I can. The physical clearing is slow for me because when I do clear, I think I’ve done what I’ve needed to so far but in reality, I seem to find more things that can really go. Confronting those wasteful thoughts was challenging and I have explained this in previous posts the truth in that comes about from it. I think clearing is a journey of what weighs you down that you need to get rid of to reveal your best self. I think I tell the truth in all my posts of my experience. I think I do this lesson quite well.

Day 186 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Do You Know Your True Self...

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Lesson 186: Do You Know Your True Self...

Along the way we forget our true selves. As a child we have dreams and goals that don’t seem unattainable because we hold that innocence that allows us to have such high hopes. As we grow older and integrate ourselves into the world, not only are we faced with certain realities but self-doubt, fears as well as doubt from others projecting their fears onto you, start to flourish in our lives. I believe these things aren’t intentional but just how society is built. As we learn in our surroundings and from those around us, pursuing our best interests aren’t always attainable when you have to work, to have a roof over your head and to eat, and somehow you lack the time to follow your dreams. Sometimes I believe working hard to save money is also something you have to do to really pursue your dreams on the side. I think we somehow get lost in amongst all this pressure in getting a job that we lose ourselves and our true self along the way.

I wanted to explore witchcraft and any form of spiritual connection to the other side when I was in high school. I bought oracle cards and used them, and also bought a tarot deck and didn’t know how to use those. Then I met my then boyfriend who said because we were Catholic we didn’t believe in all that (in reference to witchcraft), I foolishly listened and didn’t pursue it any further. I think that was the first step in losing my true self.

Here I am 16ish years later, finally being woken up to what I truly want to do in my life and I have never felt better! I had to think about what I wanted to pursue in my life through interests and hobbies. As I started to think about what I wanted as a child and teenager but didn’t have the confidence to follow through, I decided to do them now at 33. I don’t think it’s too late to follow your dreams. I now practise a way of life I want to lead and doors of opportunity have opened wide. I am now going to start working as a tarot reader for a witch shop here in Melbourne and look to starting my own spiritual practise. I think my true self is coming to the surface and it took some time to come about, but I’m glad that it has. I don’t want to neglect what I truly want to do in life and I’m not turning back.

Day 185 - A Year to Clear - It Takes Courage to Let Go

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Lesson 185: It Takes Courage to Let Go

We all have courage inside of us. I think when we’re ready, we use it in ways we didn’t image possible. I don’t think courage has to be some grand gesture. I think it’s even the small steps you take to actively want to be and do better for yourself. In this clearing journey, the courage I’ve had to summon to face my deepest, darkest truths have built some character within me. It’s actually been the most confronting thing I’ve ever done in my life – go to the deepest parts of my subconscious and come to some realisations that I didn’t really know until I faced them. It’s really a journey as well. I think that’s courage.

Other things I’ve done this year where I’ve shown courage is to discover my spiritual side and what they really entails. Just going into the unknown and trusting some higher power, not really knowing if it’s right for me and just going with the flow of it. That takes courage. It really opened doors to mentors and friends. Very grateful with how I’ve grown since the day I decided to follow what the Universe had for me.

I have a more open voice at work and try not to let people just take over the decision making. That took courage from me because I don’t usually like conflict, but I feel like if you don’t speak up, then you can be disadvantaged as well as taken advantage of. I think being able to be bold and assertive can go a long way. I’ve grown in the work place and have a voice.

I think deciding to experience new things takes courage. I think sometimes I’ve just had to go out on my own to experience. I have learned that relying on others isn’t always the best way to go. Sometimes if you really want to do something, just go for it and don’t wait to be accompanied. It pushes your comfort zone but that’s the beauty of life. Sometimes we need to push ourselves and just be brave!

I think courage is about doing away with self-doubt and fear. The things I’ve written are about overcoming these things. And in overcoming those feelings and emotions, I’m truly letting go of what was holding me back. When we’ve let go, we’re clear.