Day 132 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - If You Like To Be...

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Lesson 132: If You Like To Be Active...

What can you do to raise the vibration today? Not just for yourself but those around you, or even, the world. If you like being active, you can go around spreading good deeds and raising awareness. If you like to be quiet and calm, you can do meditation. When we are awakened we all find our spiritual path that is true to ourselves and speaks to our heart.

Today I choose to raise the vibration by sending some light to everyone. If someone feels low, I hope they see some positive way out of the situation. If someone feels like they are in a dire situation, that it starts to turn around for them. When someone loses confidence in themselves, they manage to see a positive within themselves. That people who are in the dark, find the light. I know what it’s like to feel lost and not see the light. So, I can only wish for those that might be losing some hope in the world, or even themselves, see that tiny shimmer of light to steer their lives into a good direction.

How do you want to lift up the world?

Day 132 - A Year to Clear - Perception

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Lesson 132: Perception

As we go onto our spiritual paths, there is a realisation of getting back to our “true” selves. As we go about life we tend to put filters on to ourselves – that we are unworthy, that we don’t deserve things, that we are unloved…. It really can go on and on. If we work together as a collective, we can raise our vibration to match those who are awakened, and that instigates a notion within ourselves that we are loved, we worthy, we can do a lot to help this world….

Today is about releasing a filter we have on ourselves. To break down those perceptions we have on our self and to complete this sentence:

• One way that I think that my clearing is changing the way I see myself and the world is______

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I can safely say I have put way too much pressure on myself. I think the filters I have created on myself, are definitely because I have compared myself to others, and that of the mental and verbal abuse I’ve copped along the way. I think we really can be our own worst enemies. If someone makes a comment towards us that makes us feel bad about ourselves, we can sometimes start to believe it. If someone can view you in a certain light and make a bad comment about you, it must be true right? And, that can snowball us into thinking “what do others think of me?”. It’s such a negative cycle!

I think the biggest thing I’ve done for myself is to stop caring about what others think of me. It took some time to actually look at myself in the mirror and say things like “you are beautiful” “you are amazing” “you look awesome”. If you keep saying it, one day it will stick. It’s all about language, I find. Instead of saying “I can’t do this” we can approach situations with “okay this may be challenging but I can get through it”. This takes so much practise and if you keep at it, you start to actually believe your own words. I’m not saying this happens overnight. We sometimes have to revisit the painful memories of why someone said something hurtful and tackle through it, in order to remove those filters on ourselves. I sometimes lapse though can be quick to think “why am I thinking like this?” and steer my thought process into a more positive outlook on myself.

To finish the sentence above:

• One way that I think that my clearing is changing the way I see myself and the world is through opening myself to self-compassion.

Day 131 - A Year to Clear - Polarizing Filters

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Lesson 131: Polarizing Filters

Today’s lesson uses photography as a metaphor for how we perceive ourselves. When a photographer captures an image, they might use different shutter speeds for an effect, choose a specific lense for a certain detail or even a polarising filter to get a more textured shot. Today ask yourself, what do your lenses and filters look like? How much have you altered, distorted, enhanced or polarised the reality of who you are? What about when you place rose coloured glasses on? What happens when you remove them all completely?   

I think my distortion of myself came from my past trauma. I didn’t see myself in a good light. I thought wasn’t good enough to be anything or be with anyone. Cycling thoughts of “I’m ugly” “why would anyone love me?” “I will never be successful” “what’s wrong with me?” etc etc is just a glimpse of what I used to be. I think we’ve all been there – where we’ve lost confidence or just don’t believe in ourselves. I know the root cause of this distorted perception of self came from the torment my father put me through. Then I had a boyfriend that didn’t do much to build my confidence and self-esteem either, which added to this blurred perception I had of self.

So for the majority of life, I never saw how truly good I was. I had so many good qualities, but if you spoke to me back then, I wouldn’t have believed it. I have sooooo much belief in myself now. I am 34 this year and I think I’m the best I’ve ever been. I believe I can do anything and the more I say it, the more I believe it. This came with some confronting experiences of going through my trauma and accepting it, but also growing from it. There is pain along the way, though I feel this is just a step that you need to go through to be able to open your heart. When you also have compassion for self, this allows you to accept that bad things happen and you make mistakes, and that’s okay! There is so much to learn about yourself when you’re more accepting of yourself.

So I’m to complete this sentence after that self-reflection:

• One thing I can see with greater clarity about myself since I began this course is______

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My answer:

• One thing I can see with greater clarity about myself since I began this course is the life I want to lead.

I think I bang on a lot about wanting to help people as my ultimate goal. I just know that I have to go through my own self-exploration before I get there and I have faith in myself that I will achieve what I need to.

What filters do you place on yourself? And have they changed over the years?

Day 131 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - You See Your Own Energy

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Lesson 131: You See Your Own Energy...

We raise the energy when we ourselves seek out to uplift others. We have the power of influence. So as we open our hearts, we raise people up with our thoughts and actions. Today we are to close our eyes and lift the world up today, just by holding compassion. Seems like a big ask doesn’t it?

As I closed my eyes, I imagined myself emitting golden energy. I was fully glowing and that energy was pulsating outwardly. This energy covered the whole globe and I just asked that if anyone needed healing or really needed help right now, that they receive it. I imagine some people might have felt it but who knows what my energy would have done. I mean, I’d like to think my energy has helped people right then and there. I know my energy has helped others in the past. So that’s the hope I hold for today – that someone actually received my good intentions for them and it was put to good use.

Day 130 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - You Are Aware of Wars

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Lesson 130: You Are Aware of Wars...

“You are aware of wars, of torture, suffering, rage. In heart of compassion, you see these differently. Instead of being in fear, instead of living in fear, you see them as states of low vibration, low frequency.”

— Sara Wiseman

We have the ability to take these lower vibration situations and fill it with higher states. We can do this from the goodness of our hearts and that does come from the passage of compassion. If we  were faced with the challenges of living in a war torn country, wouldn’t our hearts go to those suffering from the effects of it? Even though situations may seem dire, don’t we always try and spread hope?

I’d like to think we aren’t about saving ourselves but seeing another in need and doing our darndest to help them. I feel like I need to help homeless people when I pass them on the street and that’s just a pull I feel. I saw a girl faint at a concert the other day and my gut feeling was to help her. I think when we have this compassion, it opens us to be more instinctive to helping one another. It’s in these bad situations, when we become more resilient for the sake of others. Sometimes we just need to be strong for the other person.

Today we were supposed to think of a situation where suffering was truly “rampant” and for us to hold a higher vibration for the situation. I can’t really think of a personal situation. I can only think of my mother suffering through her divorce but she has made peace with the situation, so there is no need for me to hold a vibration. I don’t think my friends and family are suffering now, so all I can think of is all the animals that are abused in the world, whether that’s on a farm, in a slaughterhouse or they just have abusive owners and hold vibration for them now. Animals have feelings too, and sometimes we are not deserving of their gentle natured, innocent souls.