Day 307 - A Year to Clear - How Detached Are You?

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Lesson 307: How Detached Are You?

Based on the following statements, we are to see how they relate to our 4 levels of awareness.

• When my child (spouse, pet) is sick, my impulse is to______

• When I feel misunderstood, my impulse is to______

• When I feel that someone has lied to (cheated) me, my impulse is to______

• When I make a mistake, my impulse is to______

• When I see I starving child on the news, my impulse is to______

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My answers:

• When my child (spouse, pet) is sick, my impulse is to help and care for them - Unconscious Competence

• When I feel misunderstood, my impulse is to explain myself further - Conscious Incompetence

• When I feel that someone has lied to (cheated) me, my impulse is to get very mad - Unconscious Incompetence

• When I make a mistake, my impulse is to let it go because everyone makes mistakes - Unconscious Competence

• When I see I starving child on the news, my impulse is to be grateful for the life I have - Unconscious Competence

Not all instances am I fully detached. This shows me that I have much clearing to do. I need to fully let go and allow that to letting go to arise within me.

Day 307 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Law of Attraction...

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Lesson 307: The Law of Attraction...

“The “law of attraction” states that you attract what you are. Yet you are all parts: divine and mundane, sacred and profane, particulate and One. In other words, the Universe attracts itself, in all the ways it is itself.”

— Sara Wiseman

If the law of attraction is all about what we are and what we want to attract, then we need to ask ourselves this very question. Today we are to think about all the things we are and this is what we attract.

This may seem like a very confronting lesson as it really delves into what you think you are – some things that are nice and some things that aren’t so nice. I think I was quite lost for some time in my life, trying to make an understanding of who I was for so long. I think in that part of my life, I really adopted people along the way that were trying to figure it out too. I left Perth to Melbourne because I felt I was quite different from my friends there. I had just got out of a long-term relationship whilst everyone else was getting married or having children. When I moved to Melbourne, I found that the people around me were still trying to figure their lives out. It was comforting.

I wanted to just really find myself in these years. I attracted new friends by pushing comfort zones and going to meetups with the intention to make new friends. It worked out. Even when I found my spiritual path, I asked to meet witches and people like me. That also worked out.

I’ve had so many years trying to build confidence and love myself. To this day, I still doubt my own worth. I guess for me, there is so much confidence you can display and niceness you can put out into the world wanting to attract a partner, and that it doesn’t pay off. I am always myself. I don’t change to suit anyone else. I have been working on myself and learning to love myself. So, that’s the one thing I would love to attract because it would be nice to have, though it’s the one thing I can’t attract. It’s one of those life questions “what else can I do?”. I just keep going about my day. Keep trying to push comfort zones to do different activities in order to meet new people. People say when you aren’t looking they come. From my experience, when I’m not looking or attempt at looking, the outcome is the same.

Enough about that… let me move on. I always try and be strong. I don’t necessarily have people to rely on because I do live alone. I think by being strong, it helps to attract this type of mentality in others. I like to think I’m nice and attract nice friends. I am proud of who I am in being independent and it attracts that notion in others. I try to be positive and even though bad things can happen during times of positivity, I am able to overcome those moments because of my mindset. I think I bring about that for other people too.

So, this law of attraction, I am not sure it works in the way it’s meant to for me. I feel like I’m more a leader that can help others, rather than me attracting what I put out there back to me. Maybe this is the way it happens for me. I don’t get things as a like for like. Maybe it’s open for interpretation. Anyway, I’m done with this topic. I don’t think I relate to it at this point in my life.

Day 306 - A Year to Clear - Assess Your Progress

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Lesson 306: Assess Your Progress

Today we are to look at progress of clearing practises by completing the following sentences:

• Unconscious incompetence would describe the part of me that is still______

• I know I'm at the level of conscious incompetence when______

• The side of me that shows up as consciously competent in my life is______

• Where I most excel and I consider myself masterful would be in______

• One thing I can do to expand my level of awareness is______

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My answers:

• Unconscious incompetence would describe the part of me that is still able to fall into depression without any rational thought.

• I know I'm at the level of conscious incompetence when I feel the overwhelm and the only thing I know to solve it, is to breathe.

• The side of me that shows up as consciously competent in my life is when I can allow the emotions to flow, I allow those emotions to wash over me and then I can reason as to what steps are next for me.

• Where I most excel and I consider myself masterful would be in identifying the overwhelm and assisting myself in getting out of it through the breath.

• One thing I can do to expand my level of awareness is to fully let go with pure intentions in my heart.

Day 306 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - What Should You Manifest?

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Lesson 306: What Should You Manifest?

The big question – what should you manifest? Does it really matter if you do nothing? Does it really matter if you try to manifest everything? In today’s lesson, we are being told that it’s all the same – whether you leave it up to the universe or you try and make it happen, it will come up in your path in it’s own time as part of your soul growth. We are to stop worrying if we are doing it right or wrong and to just let that notion go. We are asked to hold our heart of connection and remember as well as understand, that we are one of “One”. That’s all we need to remember today.

I mean when I am setting an intention with wanting to manifest something, I haven’t really asked for major things. I always want to have enough to eat and have a roof over my head. Basic things we need to live. I always want to have a job and be safe – just like anyone else really. I have asked for specific things and they have come in a timely manner, other times I don’t see results but then I think it’s all in Divine timing. I don’t actually worry if I’m manifesting things right or not. In fact, I just leave it up to the Divine. I know some things cannot be forced, so I don’t try so hard.

I understand that we are one of connection and that connection being “One”. If only everyone could understand this, then it would raise our vibration to a higher level. That would be so profound if that could occur. I can dream… but I can also do my part in trying to raise this vibration.

Day 305 - A Year to Clear - Four Levels of Awareness - Part 2

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Lesson 305: Four Levels of Awareness - Part 2

I would type out everything in regards to the 4 levels of awareness by Stephanie Bennett Vogt, but it’s quite long. I am just going to copy and paste her levels below:

• Unconscious Incompetence would be an indicator of complete turmoil, uncertainty, chaos. At level one you feel helpless and overwhelmed. All your survival mechanisms are in full gear and you are holding on for dear life. Clearing brings up your resisting behaviors and triggers stress hormones. You have no strategies in place to manage the chaos; and if you do have them, you're too overwhelmed to put them to use. There is no light at the end of the tunnel.

• Conscious Incompetence. In level two you begin to put one foot in front of the other. Your nervous system begins to settle down. You can see that the discomfort you are experiencing in your clearing is not who you are, yet you have no idea what to do about it. You are aware of your buttons getting pressed but have no resources, strategies, or practice tools in place to manage the bumpy weather when it comes up. There is a peephole of light at the end of the tunnel.

• Conscious Competence indicates competency. In level three you know what it feels like to let go (with intention, action, non-identification, and compassion) but it takes conscious effort on your part to cultivate it. You recognize the places you hold on and know that you are not a victim of your circumstances. You feel a greater sense of ease and possibility and know that hope is possible. The tunnel is filling with light.

• Unconscious Competence is an indicator of pure awareness, effortlessness, spacious detachment, and mastery. In level four you are in the spacious zone: you are able to let go with an open heart without even thinking about it. You don't fix or judge. You take nothing personally. You accept things as they are. You laugh a lot. You vibrate clarity and attract people, places, and opportunities that are a vibrational match. You clear by just being a witnessing presence. At this level of awareness there is no tunnel; all is brilliant, shimmering light.

It almost looks to be like stages of grief and overcoming them. Today we are to think about where in these stages did we start in the clearing process and where do we find ourselves hanging out most in.

I believe that I was in “unconscious incompetence” for sure. I thought my life was chaotic and I wasn’t really managing things in my life well. I think I found my spiritual path but very lost at the same time. I think why I place myself in this level of awareness is because of my behaviour and resisting patterns. I could have easily placed myself into “conscious incompetence” but I had no awareness. I think I might have been in the in between trying to apply more self-awareness but not fully aware. I definitely bought this course in order to get my life in a bit of order and give myself coping tools with how to bring about positive energy.

If I was to say where I am now, I think I’d be in “conscious competence”. I don’t think I have fully detached to things that occur in my life. I have trouble letting go of things where people have wronged me. It’s something I am still trying to master. I can let go of things that occur as mistakes in life – for example, if someone at work makes a mistake, I apply my awareness, place myself in their shoes and apply compassion because I could have easily made that same mistake. I can help others be more aware of other people’s thinking and mistakes also. It’s like I’m 50/50 on this phase. I know I can really let go of these situations of people wronging me, because we all have that power to let go, but it’s like an old habit that holds me back. It’s almost like I like to hold onto that anger because it’s easier. I am aware that I conquer situations well and some others not so well.

Anyway, where do you think you are and where you need to go? I can see I’m getting there and when I can let go of everything, then I know I will hit that final phase. I think the thing that irks me is that people in general are not aware and do inconsiderate things – it can be as simple thing of not letting people off a train before entering themselves. It’s trying to accept that and fully be compassionate which is a hard task to master. As I keep developing, I think I will master this.