Day 165 - A Year to Clear - Nip It In The Bud

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Lesson 165: Nip It In The Bud

One way to clear old patterns is to “nip it in the bud” before it escalates and we feel stuck. Obviously, this would take a lot of self-awareness. For instance, when you have self-doubt, how can you turn the thought around so that it doesn’t stick in your head, cycles through and basically wins over your thoughts? You really have to stop and notice that you are doing these things before it just stays inside your conscious mind. Think about a thought you’ve been having lately that has been chewing away at you. Today is about nipping at it until it has no energy left inside your being.

Something that has been bothering me lately is just self-doubt in my skills as a reader. I take mediumship classes and do oracle card readings for people. At the moment, I deliver free readings online and don’t charge as I am trying to learn and gain more confidence. I have a live reading day in about 2 weeks and am doubting my skills. I don’t know why I self-doubt that I can do it. I am already doing it but I think that it’s my belief that I might fail somehow. I am in no way say that I am an expert but it’s still nerve wracking even trying to fathom the idea of doing a live reading. I think I am afraid of seeing things and them not being right or resonating with that person. That’s the challenge. I have had it happen before and it’s something to learn from. I guess, I just want to get it right all the time but maybe that’s the test – to go for it and not fear the unknown and then it will flow. I need to do away with this belief I have. I know I can do it and it’s just about releasing that fear.

What is your one thought you want to nip in the bud?

Day 31 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Stuck

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Lesson 31: When we are stuck...

Today’s lesson revolves around our use of the words “yes” and “no”. When we say “no” we are to consider this as being stuck, there is nothing we should say no to but that it’s all part of our journey and soul growth. We should always be saying “yes”.

I am having trouble figuring out what events and circumstances in which I say no to. This spiritual path I’m on has me the most open I’ve ever been. When you think about all the trivial things we worry about in western society, I’ve learned that none of it matters in the end. When I place my experience with western society against my trip to an elephant village in Thailand last year, it really puts things in perspective. Seeing the way other people living with simplicity opened my eyes, but it also opened my eyes to more conservation required and environmental issues. I was telling a friend yesterday how I struggled to conform back into the way we live in the western world after that trip. I feel now that I am sucked back into the negative cycle that it can be. I’m all for living through experience now but sometimes the conditioning we succumb to in the western world can be inhibiting. We stress in this fast paced environment that isn’t beneficial to our overall health. But anyway…. I’ve gone off topic.

I am 34 this year and I feel like I haven’t really been living. I wasted some time in my 20s but I’m using my time now to really live. I go see live music more than I ever have, I am starting on my creative projects, I push my comfort zones in order to learn. I rarely say no now. I might say no because I want rest, but when I think about it, I’m actually saying yes to some relaxation time. My friend Bonny actually taught me how his life turned around because he started saying yes to everything. It’s kind of like the Jim Carrey movie “Yes Man” – by how saying yes to everything can lead to a very enriching, full, eventful and positive experience. So, that’s how I live now. I live through experience because that’s how I will feel successful in life. Lots of things on the bucket list (a list I’ve misplaced) but there is still a lot of travelling to do, mastery of my witchcraft and light work and eventually I want  to be healing the world. I say yes to everything that allows me to truly live.