Day 37 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Our Need for Abundance

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Lesson 37: Your own needs for abundance...

Today is a consideration of what would make us fully abundant. Some areas we feel full in whilst others are progressively getting full. We can fill our lives with the physical/material, emotional and spiritual. I am to ask myself what would make me fully abundant. Once I answer that, is it my highest truth? Then I need to answer this again.

What would make me fully abundant is growing in my spiritual journey. I feel like this was what lacking in my life and it’s slowly being filled with goodness as I learn. It can only expand my mind and soul. To say if I’ll be full would be hard to answer on this because I feel like the spiritual journey can be never ending. There is so much knowledge to absorb, will one really be full?

The other thing I want is the love of a partner, to truly find someone that I connect with on all levels – physically, emotionally, spiritually, and intellectually. I feel like if I have this in my life it would just enhance my experience. I would be fuller. Rather than just giving out love and looking to care for myself, I would like to give and receive this from a partner.

This is my highest truth. In fact, I think I’ve repeated these exact comments more than once.

I am not answering this question again. I’ve done so a few times and I believe it’s my truth. They aren’t unreasonable and both are achievable. I am not about material gain anymore so it just does not apply in my life for abundance. I see abundance as enriching experiences that you make in your life.

Day 36 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Abundance

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Lesson 36: Abundance means having enough...

Today’s lesson revolves around how society has built up a mindset around abundance. Do we have enough? Do we not have enough? If we don’t have enough, that means we aren’t really happy and have that full feeling, but then again abundance will mean different things to each individual. We are told not to be fooled by what society tells us and write down our own needs today.

I feel like the only thing I “need” is a partner in life. I know I’ve mentioned this before but it’d be nice to share my life with someone. Everything else I think I “need” in my life are more wants. Even the partner is kind of a want because I can easily live life on my own and it’s more for companionship.

I don’t shop anymore because I don’t want clutter so I don’t need clothing. I have a house, job at the moment, money for food, so the needs for my livelihood are currently covered. I think those are necessities and are actual needs that most people would have.

Apart from this, I’m not really sure I “need” anything else. Everything else is definitely wants such as: I want to travel more, I want to study more on my spirituality, I want to meet more people that have my belief system, I want to live for experience, I want to be more creative. I could say needing spirituality is good for my mind and soul and finding a sense of community is comforting. Creativity makes me feel good about my life and that I’m being productive. Just living is needed to have an enriched life. So, I guess some of my wants borderline on needs because of how I want to live as much as possible.

It seems like such a tough answer for me trying to determine my needs. I am quite a simple person so I don’t feel I need as much as those who are less fortunate than me. That’s just my mindset now so I rarely think about what I need.

 

Day 36 - A Year to Clear - Weather Patterns

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Lesson 36: Weather Patterns

““Sweaty palms — weather. Shallow breathing — weather. Worry that I made a mistake — weather. Worry that someone will not care for the laptop I just gave away — weather. Memory of having something taken away from me as a child — weather. Grieving loss — weather.

Contrast those patterns with: acceptance — not weather. Trust that there is more where that came from — not weather. Witnessing the weather — not weather. Pure, clear, and uncluttered, these states of being are the real deal.”—Your Spacious Self”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

New week equals a new theme – “Watching the Weather”.

Stephanie mentions all the physical sensations, attachment and limiting belief as weather. These are the clouds that hang over us. The idea is that these weather patterns will lift to the point that we don’t personalise it anymore or identify it as our own.

I suffered anxiety today thinking about going to work today. We moved buildings and for some reason, my thoughts were overwhelmed by losing my way and not knowing where to go when I got there. On top of this, as I started walking to a different part of the city, I was even more overwhelmed by how crowded it was. There was just too many people at once and I wasn’t used to it that early in the morning. My last routine was in the quieter part of the city so it was all very new.

Not sure why I thought I’d feel so nervous when people in my workplace are friendly. It was very odd to get myself worked up over it. Based on this week’s theme, it shows I do have some learning to do in order to “witness the weather” rather than clouding myself. Looking forward to this week and what I’m about to engage in.

Day 35 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - When You Look At Money

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Lesson 35: When you look at money...

“Lesson 35: When you look at money as energy, you understand how easy it is to manifest and create the energy of money. You may do this easily, as your heart opens.”

— Sara Wiseman

I am still having trouble getting into the concept of money as energy. Today I am to write down my fears with money and ask myself if I really need to hold onto my fears. I am then I write “I am ready to release my fears around money” and see what happens.

My fears are pretty basic – that I’ll lose my job and not have money to support myself. I mean that’s my whole livelihood gone and because I’m clearing debts, it would mean I could potentially be drowning in money woes. I am afraid of just not having enough. I think I’m more afraid of not having enough in general. I have been in pretty bad situations where I was living week to week and couldn’t afford much of anything, so I don’t want to end up in those circumstances again.

Of course, I can stick to a good financial plan to chip away at this problem, but you just never know what factors that can happen that will impact you. All I have is to rely on myself solely. I do have a mortgage, so it’s more around not having money to pay that. I don’t have a partner so I don’t currently share expenses – in saying that, having a partner doesn’t necessarily improve your financial situation.

If money is just energy to flow through, then I have to look at it more positively. It’s a blessing to have a job and support myself, there are other people in this world with much less in worse situations and I have a good support network if needed. I think I need to approach money with gratitude, I dispense to the necessities and I slowly diminish my debt for better financial goals.

I am ready to release my fears around money… Let any worries be sent out to the universe and let my approach to money manifest in ways I’ve never known before.

 

Day 35 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 5 - Tuning In

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Lesson 35: Check In WEEK 5 - Tuning In

Today is the last week’s theme check in of “Tuning in”. Very much focused on the senses that we tend to lead with, find out what it revealed about myself as well as viewing spaces differently and the people in them.

I learned more about what is developing within me. On this spiritual journey, I am opening up my mind, loving and accepting people more, whilst not trying to take on other people’s energy that may leave a cloud hanging over me. I am pleasantly surprised by things I pick up along the way that adds value to my life. I feel like I’ll be learning until the end. The wealth of knowledge that enhances my experience but also me as a person, just continues to grow and expand constantly. I also feel I gain a lot of my own insight and mental clarity through meditation and gain answers that are already within me. Funny how that works - We are wise if we choose to be No matter how we are guided, there are answers we can find if we just look within. We always need to start with ourselves before we can help others. I have never known that to be true, more so than now.

I know that spaces where I don’t feel right are the ones I will try to avoid. I think trusting those initial instincts mean everything. You aren’t a bad person for wanting to leave a room or avoiding it entirely if it doesn’t sit well with you. I know that I need to protect myself more from other people’s negative energy. Whether you choose to believe it or not, negativity spreads like wildfire. It can take one passing comment or feeling, to spread within people in a room. That collective energy is powerful and we should always try to turn it around into a positive environment. I know if it gets too much and I feel it in my body, I will just walk away. I can’t be around people who don’t want to reason and take on a better approach. It’s something I’ve noticed more in the last year or so, and I will continue to stand for my own values on this.

Even now I recognise I’m being dragged down from work and have some negative thoughts in my head. I am aware of them fully and actively trying to seek some goodness to enrich my life outside of work. It’s a bit tough managing but I know only I can turn it around. I know I will figure it out and work won’t bog my mine and exhaust me as it currently does. My work situation is definitely out of my control, but I need to take control on how I can feel positive at work. It’s tough when you spend most of your time there and i's now pushing me harder to work towards my goals.

It’s been a good week, honing in on my senses and being aware. Gained some further insight to this journey which I’m appreciative of.