Day 42 - A Year to Clear - Check In WEEK 6 - Watching the Weather

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Lesson 42: Check In WEEK 6 - Watching the Weather

Sunday’s check in for the weather week has been interesting. What did I notice and what kind of sensations did I see shift or maybe lift?

I noticed managing my anxiety has been a lot better. This week’s lesson was a reminder to focus on my breath work, recognising that you don’t have to identify with it and it is just a passing cloud. I learned that I don’t have to let the emotions take over. We have the ability to observe and take the steps to deal with it. It’s a new ability to take the observer’s view, which is much of what this course has been teaching me, and it really allows you to grow and take control.

I’ve got my reminders to “Just Breathe” so I think my anxiety will be managed. It’s been raising itself more than normal. I haven’t had proper anxiety since 2016 but I feel my work environment has been causing this. Something that is currently out of my control and it’s a waiting game, to see how management handle the environment that’s been created.  I am not stressed but more waiting on some kind of direction. Until then, I’ll manage what I can and focus on my outside of work activities.

It’s been good watching my weather patterns and something I am aware of to look at in the future. I think the more I practise being the observer, the more I can handle my situations with proper perspective.

Day 42 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - Your Own Particular Needs...

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Lesson 42: Your own particular needs...

We are led on experiences that are meant for our highest self. Our soul path is one we have to trust even if following blindly. We don’t always have the answers and really, we aren’t always meant to. Our future isn’t set and we are always making choices that allows for experiences to flow.

Today I am to ask myself – do I know where I am going? If I have no idea, can I let go and trust, open myself to the mystery and what does it feel like to walk blindly?

I don’t know exactly where I am going but I have a little bit of an idea. I mean, I am currently on my own spiritual awakening and my journey is amazing, in that I am constantly learning, not only about myself but something much more larger than myself. I find it hard to let go of past difficulties though I am currently working through those situations that plague my mind, most of which is buried in my subconscious. I am putting a lot of trust in the universe to send me what I need when I am ready. It’s a slow release for something much grander for my life. I just know I’m here to make a difference and I look forward to it.

I am finding that my living through experience is going really well. There’s so much to be gained when you start to live like this and there is a hunger to learn more. I want to make sure my life is meaningful , not for anyone else but enriching for me. I might seem late to the party as a lot of my experiences are being experienced now that I’m 33, though I find it’s never too late to achieve what you want in life. I am not going to be the limiting factor in anything I do.

It’s been hard to let go and trust the universe having a plan. There has been a lot of doubt in my skills and ability, but I believe that it’s something new to me, and therefore that’s where that fear sets in. Definitely pushing comfort zones and I will continue doing this. The path is wide open and I’m just taking it as it comes.

Day 41 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - You are meant to enjoy...

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Lesson 41: You are meant to enjoy...

We are meant to enjoy our “core self”. In life at one time or another we’ll do what we think is healthy in fitting in, competing others and trying to be “better”. But is this true to our “core self”? I definitely was always an outsider growing up in a predominantly white community in one of the few Asian families that lived there. I was always different and wanted to fit in. I feel that from childhood, this has heavily influenced my dealings with people as a teenager and adult, as I always felt this need to fit in. I always wanted to be in the cool crowd. I always acted like I had money, when in fact, my mother was a single mum and we were not rich, and there were times mum struggled. I always sort of hid that from everyone because I felt like being poor made me insubordinate in some way. I thought richer meant that I was better. The way our minds work hey?

Saturday’s lesson goes through letting go of any of this type of thinking. We need to exist as we truly are in this lifetime. I am to list those I think are “better” than me, as we as list who I think am “better” than. Then I am to ask myself how do these beliefs serve me and how can these beliefs be real.

So I’ve learned through my own awakening that I am no better than anyone, nor them over me, as well as I am no less than someone, nor them to me. When you start to journey through your own spirituality, you start to learn that we are all equal as humans and we shouldn’t treat someone above or less than ourselves. I can’t tell you the exact moment I started to think this in this way. It is a very enlightened way of thinking and a natural flow on the path I decided to take. I honestly think it was when I got to look after elephants and help out a village in Thailand. Seeing how other people lived in a true sense of community, without any of the worries we have in western world was definitely an eye opening experience. It was part of the reason why I started to think I want to help the world on a larger scale one day…. Well that’s the plan anyway. I want to be able to end the homeless problem in Australia as well. It’s odd, I used to see homeless people as dirty and less than me. It actually makes me sick typing that. Like, who the fuck am I to actually ever think that way? When you can actually recognise that we are all human and some need a little bit more help than others, it really makes you re-evaluate what you tend to under appreciate in your life.

Anyway, if you’re reading this, have a think about when you’ve thought someone was better than you or if you’ve thought you’re better than people. We need to exist in ourselves and know that our path is our own. We shouldn’t compare ourselves to each other. We need to start seeing each other as equal no matter what the circumstance.

Day 41 - A Year to Clear - Quiet the Mind

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Lesson 41: Quiet the Mind

Saturday’s lesson focuses on thinking about one thing that I can say or do that will work every time to “quiet the mind and loosen stuck energy”. I am to write it on a Post It not and place it in a noticeable spot to remind me.

My note says “Just Breathe”. Just taking a moment to allow everything to settle down through breath work is beneficial to me. I think it’s beneficial to everyone really. Controlling the storm by taking a moment to step back and breathe through it.

I’m placing this note on my laptop for work as I think that’s where a lot of other people’s energy really starts to impact me. I will also place a post it note at home on one of the walls I pass by frequently. A simple exercise with lifelong benefits.

Day 40 - A Year to Clear - Weather Watch

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Lesson 40: Weather Watch

“Emotional weather is not who you are. And it does pass when you choose not to identify with it.”

— Stephanie Bennett Vogt

Although this is Friday’s lesson, I did actually do the lesson but didn’t have a chance to write it down.

There were times of overwhelming energy at work in which I didn’t want to have around me on Friday. I kept repeating the mantra taught from one of the previous lessons “it’s just weather” and took long inhales in and long exhales out. I think every time something may have started to feel anxiety, I just repeated this and it helped  to just settle it down.

Later on when I was at my mates’ house watching some TED talks and enjoying a nice meal, I took the time to notice that I was relaxed. When you’re taking the time to notice the changes in weather pattern, for me, it was nice to be aware of the calm weather, but that you have the power to control the feelings in the bad weather. I found that the breath work is really helpful in dealing with overwhelm and when you can recognise those little things that tick you off, repeating that mantra allow it not to get to you. It’s very much allowing it to come, recognising/acknowledging it’s there, and then releasing it.