Day 55 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - The Wrong Path

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Lesson 55: When you see people heading down the wrong path...

I knew this weekend I was going to have a busy weekend with work and mediumship class, which didn’t really leave me with much time to post. Saturday’s lesson goes onto our need to fix others. When we see people going down a wrong path, we usually have an opinion about it right? We usually have our own viewpoints of what is right in another’s situation and what’s wrong based on our own morals and values. We tend to suggest a different way because we genuinely want to help but also tend to forget that everyone has their own path for their own soul growth.

Saturday’s exercise focuses on who have we been trying to fix lately and is it working? If we knew the outcome would be the same whether we tried to fix it or not, what would you do? And then the final question is for whose soul path are we responsible for and if we’re really sure about that.

I try not to fix people’s lives. I know I tend to give advice that I think would really help but I don’t feel like I’m out to directly fix people’s lives. I know from my own experience that I am the only person responsible for my life and therefore need to be accountable for all my actions. I feel this is the way everyone should be. I can listen and offer assistance, but ultimately, it’s your choice to listen and then make choices for what’s best. The only time I feel people should listen to me is when I’ve delivered a message from spirit. I know those times, you really need to listen to what’s being conveyed because it’s not even my advice, it’s that of the other side. There is something larger at play in those instances and I am just a messenger. I know not everyone believes in talking to spirit, but if I’m doing a card reading for you, then the message coming is important. In saying that, I don’t think I’m out to fix you, I’m just giving some advice for your direction from spirit.

I don’t feel anyone should be responsible for anyone else’s soul path. Everyone has a journey they need to go on and have their own experiences and learnings to be had. Sure, you can share your journey with others, though any decision you make in life is yours and yours alone. We’re there for assistance but definitely not fixing. That’s just my opinion. Answering the question if the result was the same, what would you do – I wouldn’t be fixing anyone in the first place but if I was, I’d stop because end result would be the same. Think about people you’ve been trying to fix lately and take a step back to think about why.

Day 54 - A Year to Clear - Simple Clearing Process

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Lesson 54: Simple Clearing Process

Today’s exercise involves a meditation/visualisation which is something I already do. Basically Stephanie mentions imagine all your worry is a ball of “sluggish energy” that resides within your own personal field. You are to imagine that bad energy just melting or seeping away and replace it with bright sparkling energy to help restore you. Once you have done this once, you can do it every day to release this energy.

The approach I actually take is every time I breathe in, I imagine white pure energy being inhaled and when I exhale, it’s black dark energy exiting my body. I imagine the white energy spreading through all parts of my body. It’s a very refreshing and uplifting feeling. Like you are anew and can conquer anything.

I believe everyone has their own way of using this simple clearing process. You should try it today! You don’t know how much good it can do!

Day 54 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - No One Will Come to Fix You

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Lesson 54: No one will come to fix you...

Today’s lesson focuses on the only way to heal is by yourself. No one can really help you but they can be witness to your own “human experience”. If we can start to understand this, the sooner we will heal. I am to think about who I depend on and who depends on me. Have these relationships grown and stuck around? How would you like your relationships to be and how would you like yourself to be?

I depend on myself. This I learned when I went through my major relationship break up. There was no one that could get me through those feelings, the independence I had to take on and learning path I struggled through. I knew that there was no one to pick me back up but myself. It was a hard reality realising this – the dependency of a partner was gone and I had to get one with it. I had to learn how to live on my own, make decisions on my own and push comfort zones embracing a new city that I had moved to. I can definitely say it was a good challenge and although I didn’t know what I was doing, I’m grateful for it. Ever since then, I have realised that the best person to help you is yourself. Not that I always close myself off to assistance, but I definitely know I’m the person who knows what how to make me happy again. No one else can do this for me.

I am a good listener. I feel like I am depended on heavily. I think there is a natural attraction to me, where by people think they can get good advice. Some of these relationships have stuck and some have naturally dropped off over time. I think not all relationships need to stick around for all of time. I think some people come about to hold a purpose for that time and sometimes you outgrow each other. I don’t want to go about listing them all because I feel like it’d be a novel. Some relationships last, some just don’t, and that’s okay.

I think I know what I want out of my relationships. I know I want the same respect that I deal out. I know I don’t want to be surrounded by toxic people because they can be draining. I know I am living the best life I possibly can be and want others to do the same. I know that relationships hold different value and I wouldn’t change the relationships I currently have. If anything, as I grow to be more understanding and caring on a larger scale, I’d like to see people have more empathy towards others, and the Earth. I know this is a massive ask and people aren’t aware, and/or don’t want to know how this Earth is crying out for help, but we really need to come together as a conscious collective to heal the world. I mean, I dream big and hope one day, that all the people I encounter has the same mindset as myself.

Day 53 - A Year of Spiritual Awakening - When the Inner Heart...

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Lesson 53: When the inner heart...

Today’s lesson once again focuses on the inner heart – the Ananda Kanda. If we live with our heart within our heart to be fully open, it will remain open and we will be forever changed. When we open our inner heart fully, it will lead to “bliss, transcendence, nirvana”. I am to ask myself if I desire the inner heart (Ananda Kanda) to be open and if I do, to do it now.

I decided to meditate on this. I asked the Universe to open me up and asked for guidance from spirit. I envisioned my chest open, bursting out with white light – like I am ready to be receive as well as give. This light was so bright and I had it pulsating out from me in a circle. I imagined the Universe’s light shining down on me and filling me with it’s wisdom. I want to receive all that is meant for me, though I don’t want to always receiving without giving to others. I think whatever I can experience can also be shared. I don’t want to just take, take, take, if you know what I mean. I feel like I need to share also. I feel if I put my light out there, it will attract good people into my life.

I think this is a good exercise for anyone that wants to be more open than they ever thought they could be. Search within yourself and find your inner heart and meditate on what that inner heart wants.

Day 53 - A Year to Clear - It is Safe to Let Go

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Lesson 53: It is Safe to Let Go

Today’s lesson revolves around thinking of a story that I tell myself that is not true and what I’d like to release. I am to write it down and complete the following sentences:

• It is safe to let go of this story because____ [Notice and allow the part of you that does not feel so safe].
• I know that this story is not true because_____

I am meant to write everything that comes to my mind within a minute or until I feel complete. I decided to meditate on this story that’s been coming up lately that I really need to release.

Last year I really liked my friend, we slept together, certain things were said that gave me an impression things might go further, maybe it was in my head, I’m not sure, and don’t think that’s relevant, but after 2 failed methods of contraception, I fell pregnant, had an abortion against my own values because it meant I’d do pregnancy on my own. The toughest moments of my life was during this time and I hold onto feelings from this situation that are just not true. I hold onto the fact that I think I’m not worthy of love. I think I deserve love, but the memories of that situation, make me think that I’ll never find a partner that truly understands the kind of love I offer. During this time, I had to not only get over the feelings I had for my friend, I had to also recognise I lost my friend at the same time, as well as deal with depression of that abortion. There was a lot of questions of “why is this happening to me?” “what did I do to deserve this?”. You can’t help but feel this way when you’re faced with such trauma. I felt unloved and worthless in that moment. There’s an ugliness that brews inside that can take over and somehow it’s all you’re blinded by.

So I decided to meditate on this for release. It’s popped up many a time in recent weeks for me to deal with and release. I faced some truths. I asked my guides and the Universe to really let me confront those truths. These included:

·         My friend was in his own turmoil that he needed to sort out himself

·         There was nothing I could do to convince him that he could be with me

·         He was never going to be strong enough to deal with the abortion like I needed him to

·         He wasn’t the right person for me

·         I deserve someone that truly understands me and accepts me for who I am

·         It’s not my fault for trying

To finish the sentences I need to for today’s lesson:

• It is safe to let go of this story because it’s the past, the past cannot be changed, this person wasn’t good for me, the Universe is here for me and I was to learn from that experience.
• I know that this story is not true because I am a powerful being with much to offer and just because one person didn’t love me, doesn’t mean I won’t ever find the right partner.